Boxing day

Shopping IS tiring!
haha..
today i bought loads of things! much much better than least year's boxing day =)
I bought smart black pants, shirt, very very nice fitted blazer from topshop...Body Shop stuff..blue and brownish/gold sweater.
I feel so free to spend the money..taken into account that i just got paid from VUE yesterday.

Christmas this year was good =)
Me, Ninghan, Syah, and Yihlin travelled to Austria and Czeh (Prague) republic from 16-24 dec. I LOVE Prague! its soo pretty..and romantic...and cheap! Our trip was filled with hearty supper almost every single night =) we totally splurge on meals. Christmas markets everywhere, the best one are in Vienna. All the food stalls selling trodl "hollow bread" as yihlin named it..bratkartoffeln (nice salty garlicky potato pancakes)..boar meat & bread..gluhwein..langos! All the cutesy christmas decorations. Went to lots of cafes, Cafe Central in Vienna & Cafe Louvre in Prague were the best.. brown omelette pancakes with plum syrup, melted hot choc..heavenly.
Made a few friends along the way, mostly lone travellers..
Lots of long long walks around the city.. Bone church in kutna hora..so bony lol.

Salzburg is pretty..cold, but pretty. Saltmine and the Bavarian alps was cool..with the thick white fluffy snow..It was like a scene from Narnia.
Vienna is ok..nothing much special, but i love watching the horses being trained in the Spanish Riding School! awesome.very very highly skilled riders..
Prague is lovely! i wanna go back there again someday. Can see the castle..while walking across Charles Bridge in the evening. All the lights are so so pretty..reflected on the river.
It was a good, short, winter trip..a nice getaway from my normal, super busy london life. =)
I feel refreshed.

Ok from tomorrow, time to really start revising *sigh* =(

Once a year

I feel loved =)
..It's christmas day today !..

Farewell

Letting go of someone whom you have know more than half your lifetime is really really hard..Mom called today and told me that Brino was dying. He's been there with me since i was in 3rd grade primary school..I remembered Opa took him home when he was just a puppy. He was sooo tiny. Then he cried and cried the whole night cos it was the first time he was separated from his mum. I was ecstatic at the first experience of having a puppy..that time he came with Pedro, his brother, whom becomes Novi's dog. Me and Novi had so much fun playing with them. I remembered we used to put him behind, at the maid's quarters. And everytime we let him into the house, he will run around like crazy and tried to bite everything (cos his teeth was growing that time). Me and novi will jump on the couch to avoid being bitten by him, even tho it wasnt painful at all since he's only a puppy. Then after that as he get older, we put him out on the patio..he was on the leash for quite a long time. Meggi came when he was around..6 yrs old i think. He and Meggie instantly bcome best buddies. At first we was afraid he will attack Meggi, but in the end they loved each other to bits. Every single time i came back from school, he will jump up and down.. impatient to get off from his leash to greet me. He always loved it if i scratch his back with my foot.. usually i will sat down on the sofa, he will sat in front of me with his back facing me. We can stay like that for ages.

He was there when the riots happened
He was there when I graduated from primary school
He was there when I first started horse riding
He was there when I first had a crush on someone
He was there when it was the first time someone liked me
He was there when I got typhoid
He was there when I cried
He was there when I laughed
He was there when I was sad
He was there all the way through my junior high school and high school
He was there when I first found love
He was there when opa was really sick
He was there when I learned how to drive and able to drive by myself
He was there when I got my test results/a level results/competitions
He was always always there for me
He is always happy to see me, no matter how bad my day was. No matter what people think of me, he loves me all the way and vice versa.

When he gets really old, it was when i left for UK. He got white hairs on his nose. His eyesight is no longer good, also his legs were weaker. Nevertheless, he was still quite energetic. Those times we already let him loose, he can wander in and out of the house freely. He knows his way in the neighbourhood. When he was younger, he used to be able to hear if i'm coming by the sound of my car (he lives in my grandparents house, not in my house...). He will barks like crazy. As he gets older, he cant really hear it anymore. He will barks happily if he heard me opening the gate. Then after a few years, last time when i came back to indo this summer..he cant even hear me opening the gate anymore. I will have to come up to him and pat him on the back to let him know it was me. The amazing thing is after he knew it was me, he will still barks and jump around happily as though he was still the young, 5 yrs old dog ( he was already 12 that time). He will tire soon though.. the he will sat down in front of me, with his back facing me, demanding to be scratched as usual. As always he will follows me wherever I go in oma's house. I could see that he really was getting old. I always told him to take care of oma and opa whenever i went back to UK.

Mom called me today and said that he was ill these past few days. The vet came and said his liver was really bad..thus his body and his face was swollen. He was in a lot of pain. I told mum, its ok to put him down, but mum said that our vet do not like the idea of putting down animals. Our vet had suggested that the best way was for the one who loved him the most, to pray for him so he will go soon in peace.. When mum told me this, I think my response was soo distant. I dont know why, but I just cannot cry. When I wrote this, i feel like crying, but still i cant cry that openly. I dunno why, even though inside i felt really really sad.. I cant believe i cannot see brino anymore. My best friend, who's been there for me this past 12 yrs.. He was there with me, and he's the one whom i talked to a lot if i got problems. I cant believe that now he's dying and im not there with him. In an egoistics way, this might be easier for me as im not there..seeing him in pain, but im just so angry at myself why the hell am i stuck here while he, at this very minute, is dying back home. Fuck.
I love him
I have to let him go
I'm gonna pray so he will go soon in peace
I dont want him to suffer more.
Its a farewell at long last

Temptation

"I never resist temptation because I have found out that things which are bad for me, simply do not tempt me." George Bernard Shaw

Holiday mood

I'm in holiday mood!
today I slept in until 10.30am..then i woke up..went to run errands. Went back home, cooked myself a nice lunch (pasta with carbonara & veggie). Did bits and pieces. Went for work (very quiet today). The day after tomorrow we're off to Salzburg!! yayy... i started packing already today. Thx ppx for the bag! hehe..
Can't really bring myself to properly start revising yet.. bad bad..
but anyway, i think i deserve a bit of a break, then came back and can start revising =)
ok..ciao

Olympia

Okay, Olympia IS way COOL!

Today was a horse-filled-activity day which was really really really great =)

Got stat test in the morning..which is not brilliant, but ok. Then its end of term!! xmas hols (yeap with revising of course..) is here..yayyy

After that we got Pony Games ! I got Twiglet!! that black n white pony up there.. he was the cutest pony ever!! he was so fast cantering and weaving in and out of the cones..he did flying changes at every turn. I dont even hv to do anything really. So so cool.. He nearly bucked me off at the beginning though, when i asked him to canter. but i dont mind, i love him to bits! he is truly the best pony ever to have in pony games. There was this time when we have to jump off, took a polo mint from a bucketful of bran on the ground using our mouth..and feed it to our pony. Got a taste of a mouthful of bran lol...

Then after pony games, i got Todd for our flat lesson. Omg, he was a total body workout! i feel like i'm dying alrd after only 1/2 hr. The thing is, he will lean down sooo much on your hand, you feel like he's dragging you down and down ..He's good tho cos in a way he teach me how to really use my leg and sit up straighter. I tend to slouch a bit cos im so used in training young horses where u hv sit lightly cos their back is not strong enough usually. So with Todd, i had to really make him work...cos he's good and he knows his job, but if he knows he can get away with not doing anythg much..he will. In the end managed to make him do decent simple changes and shoulder-ins. not bad =)..plus now i got a horse to exercise in weeknds, Loki!

Then we all went to Olympia! around 7 of us..Its my 1st time to Olympia. Last yr i wanna go but didnt. It was way way good! really worth it. They got this huge shopping complex, with all the horsey stuff..good thing tht chief and kim is not here, otherwise i'd have bought tons of things for them. Then today's evening performance we got Service Showjumping Championship, where the winner is this paint horse called Peter Pan. He's just so good...he jumps well. We plan on stealing him and bring him back to Trent lol.. Then also got Hanoverian Stud Quadrille from Holland..ok only. After tht is the Police Attraction ShowJumping..which is cool! they rode their horses thr ring of fire (the pics above)..and also they undo their jacket WHILE jumping..and undo their saddle while riding..(this is the part which made me really puzzled how the hell they do it..hehe might try n get adam to taught us how). Me and Chris spent 1/2 hr discussing various ways we might be able to get our saddle off while riding. The best part was the last, which was Imke Bertels schoolmaster show..and FEI Kur Dressage to the Music (World Qualifier for Western European League).

I got to see Isabell Werth with Warum Nicht!! and Anky van Grunsven and Laura Bechtolscheimer and Paganini..and Imke Bertels!! Isabell's test was just surreal..her piaffe and tempi changes..plus with the music, the horse and her really just seem to dance ..truly dance. Got this one pair, which music is Grease's soundtrack, quite funny.. also Laura didnt ride tht well tonite, but her horse was damn damn good.

oh we won this stuffed horse, which me and luke was holding at the pic above..he's gonna b our mascot, and we christened him as Peter Pan! xp

Very tired, very happy =)

Twice in a day

Today, twice i met dian on msn (which was really rare). At 1st was in bio comp lab..she made this perumpamaan (no idea wht tht word is in english, lol) describing how she finally can accept some things.. It goes sort of like this : Friends are like stars in the sky. They will always be there. Day or night, even tho you can't always see them often..but you know they are there. When your life is too busy, you might not be able to see them (imagine its like London sky at night, cannot see the stars cos of the bright street lights)..but when you need them, they will shine on you (imagine its like..egypt sky, when its super dark, the stars & moon are the only light source).
Then at some point in your life, you will find a boyfriend/girlfriend..they are like rainbows. They are there for a brief period of time, then they are gone. They are beautiful, but it is a hard and long journey to find them as they only appear after the rain stops.

Then the 2nd time was before i went to sleep (yah like, just now)..she sent me a mssg, which is really good as well. It was about time (might sounds a bit weird, cos it was in indo..i try put it into english here)..She was saying that :

How can you define time ?

Time is always the reason why we are always rushing in this life..Running to chase time, or running away from the reality of time.

Time makes life more real.

We start to think that time is precious and meaningful when we only have a little of it left..when we have a lot of time, time just passed by..unnoticed..ignored by us. If we have a deadline to finish, shall we blame ourselves? or shall we blame time? Time will always rule our life.. We started to think, can we cheat the time? No, time is way too smart.

If we try to do a lot of things at once, it might not work out..

There are times when you love 'time' ..

There are times when you hate 'time'..

People keep saying '24 hours in a day is not enough'..but even though there are 100 hours in a day, people will still say '100 hours a day is not enough'.

Life is funny.

Santa can u hear me*

I'm very sleepy..
but i forced myself to stay awake..
at least for another hour.
Got two more chinese conversation to listen, i think i get the hang for most of it now =) yay! but still a bit worried for the test tmr. I hope i can do ok..

5 more days then we're off to Austria!!

"..Just for me, underneath my christmas tree...i'll be waiting here, santa that's my only wish this year :) .."

Pikkujoulut

This weekend had again pass by super fast. As usual, work at nights..cinema is ok, not so busy now after Bond had been out for 3-4 weeks. Went for Pikkujoulut (a finnish tradition to gather and drink a few weeks before xmas..i think) at Char/Nina/Mimi/Judith's place on friday nite...Their place is really2 near to big sains, the one near orient. Lots of bio ppl =) talk2 n drink..Went back around 1.30am. Initially was planning to go back home..but in the end i slept over at ninghan's place. Woke up ard 8.30 the next morning, felt quite awake. Had breakfst, went grocery shopping in sains..went back home, home at ard 11am. Somehow i just felt really peaceful that time..ended up cooking a nice meal for lunch, revise chinese (really2x start to worry how the hell am i gonna memorise all the characters for the test on monday!!!)...then just lazying around. Thia called! ended up talking2 for almost 2hrs with her. I feel very peaceful today =)

Memories

Afternoon sky, look at the rainbow :)

Sunset near Old Walls
Apple trees behind HighField in spring

Our boarding house

Field full of yellow flowers in front of mainhall

<3

Sunset behind sportshall

Ok i'm supposed to be revising chinese, then decided to browse facebook..then i opened Lien's profile and saw these pics which she took during our time in concord. Suddenly i was overwhelmed by memories of concord..I miss it!! I miss that secure, nice feeling we had during our times in cc. Living there, sharing everything together with everyone. Strange, these past few weeks i've suddenly missed concord so much.. i hardly think about cc at all last year. but these days, I really miss it.

Strand

I just got back home from riding club xmas dinner..its at Zizzi, in Strand. It was a good dinner =) ..esp the appetizer, which was bruschetta with some goat cheese & chicken stuff. Nice :) Abt 40 of us were there, which was really quite a lot. It was with some ppl from ULU Polo Club as well (since we started playing polo with them this yr).. I've hardly been to Strand area at all..turns out it was quite nice at night, with lots of restaurants and stuff.

I never actually notice if I'm asian nowadays, but tonight i did realise tht beside me, there's only 1 asian guy in the table (but he's canadian). Thats a bit funny though, cos I think a few of the polo club ppl..which i never met before..actually kind of give me a sort of funny look..cos due to Sam's idea (its quite funny actually..we all sat in one long row..then the ppl frm polo club sat in front of us..so we can get to know each other better). There's this girl from the polo club, who asked Laura, like..who is the best rider in imperial..then Laura just pointed to me..and i can see frm her expression tht she was so surprised. She was like, oh so you've been riding a long time then etc...she thought i was a beginner rider at first. I quite enjoyed it actually hehe. =)Thats why in horsy world over here, sometimes i do feel so asian..cos theres really NO asian ppl working in the stable etc..but the good thing is, once they know that I know what i'm doing and i'm good at it, then they'll be fine. Like back in Shrewsbury, when i volunteered to help out at competitions, i'm always the one and only asian as well. Nowadays i alrd get used to it. Also wht i really love abt horsy ppl, is tht even tho u just meet..then we can just talk n talk n talk abt horses endlessly..i cant really remember the names of the new ppl i just met tonite, but we managed to talk all the way thro a 3-course-dinner abt horses and horses and more horses...
Its amazing...had a good time =) and also feel really2 sleepy now cos i ate so much.

I think my alcohol tolerance level really decrease a lot nowadays..i was a bit high just after 1/2 a glass of wine. Really really bad..usually i can drink a lot more compared to my friends.. hmm. Might b cos i havent drink a lot lately. Really quite worrying, cos usually i'm always the one left quite sober and ended up taking care of others.

Only one week (less than one week actually) of school left..then its xmas hols! i really make myself to start revising properly 2-3 days ago..and now i actually felt stressed. I really shd make a effort to call my parents tmr.. been planning to call them for the last 4 days, but havent got around to actually make that call. Sometimes i feel like being here for too long, makes me forget my origin (or some sort)..jakarta feels soo far away..like my life before i came here never existed..its like a vague memory in the very back of my mind. Its quite bad.

All I want for Christmas is You & Christmas is All Around are currently on my playlist =) I love xmas songs!

Happy thoughts!

Today was normal, normal but relaxing day =)
Went for a run in Hyde park, so nice...will do tht more often! hehe..then went back early which was really rare for me. Cook salmon for dinner, then watched Grey's anatomy frm Meiting :)
Irma's back as well, good to hv her back. I realised i don't like coming back to empty flat everyday, cos she's always back before me. Then hmm..wht else, nothing much i guess..but i feel like its nice to just have a normal, non busy day sometime. when u just go back home, no lab reports to type up, no rush to do anything.

Yesterday work was really easy, closed damn fast with Melissa. Plus Sebastian hid in the popcorn box n scared meiting hehe..tht was so funny. He actually can fit into tht box! xp Nxt week gonna b busy again i guess..Happy Feet and The Holiday coming up. Mil also left, he was transferred to VUE west end..Hmm. Magda was telling us stories back then when she just started in VUE 3 yrs ago, apparently tht time was much much busier.

Oh and i just downloaded R ! i really like playing with the graphs.. hehe..it was fun :)

Cloudy afternoon

"If the whole universe has no meaning, we should never have found out that it has no meaning. Just as, if there were no light in the universe and therefore no creatures with eyes, we should never know it was dark. Dark would be without meaning." -c.s. lewis

Greeting by a cat

Most nights when I was walking back home from Pimlico tube station, I always met this brown cat. He (or she?) will come up to me and purred happily while I stroke & cuddle him a bit. Then he'll follow me a few metres, before turning back and went back to his house. I think his owner let him loose for a few hours every night. Some cats are actually quite cute. :)

Godfather

Just came back home from Leicst Sq, met up with Artati there..we went to Bella Italia, and had this nice yummy chocolate/raspberry/cream desert. Its called the Godfather : vanilla creme, sprinkles of choc chips, choc brownies, vanilla/choc ice cream.. practically the perfect choc overload for desert. Also ordered a raspberry cheesecake..and latte. Sat outside, sipping our hot latte and scooping the yummy desert. Talk abt loads of things, catching up basically :) ..At one point we talked abt how funny it is bcos here, we're all so..well..say independent. as in..we deal with our own rent,pay our bills, travel around by bus/tube/walk, etc etc..then the moment we're back home, strangely we just fall back to bcome dependent to lots of things. Like, parents/driver/maids/cars.. we don't even have a clue how to pay water/electricity bills back home. Its all sorted by our dearest parents. Hmm..funny, isn't it?

Also we agreed at this pretty much standard opinion : at some point in your life, whether its in love/life/study/job/friends whatever.. There's almost always 2 available options in general :

1. Follow what YOU really want

2.Choose the SAFE option

The rules are more or less.. choose (1), then say,its in love : u give someone 110% of your heart, then there's a risk they'll break it into pieces, and you getting hurt. In a job : be totally egoistic and do what you REALLY want, say be an artist and drew whatever you want, nobody buys your work, but somehow you still wants to get money to live on.

OR choose (2), if its in love : choose a guy who likes you FIRST, then you wouldn't risk getting hurt cos you know the guy likes you..so he won't hurt you. The downside is, you don't actually likes 'likes' him that way, only..care abt him as friends the most, but then he is the safe option... In a job : be an artist, BUT you DON'T get to draw what you want.. you draw what ppl WANTS you to draw, then they pay you for your work. (I mean if its talking from an artist's point of view.. it can be any other jobs really..the average ppl, who did the average 9-5pm jobs.. which they don't hate doing, but its not exactly their dream jobs anyway..they did it for the sake of making enough money for their family is more like the case)

All those posters saying "Follow your dreams", or "Only you who can decide who you wants to be"..and all that kind of bullshit, is non sense. I mean, frankly speaking, yeah u can.. and i'm sure there are lots of ppl who did exactly that, but it is not as easy as it sounds.

Hmm..
oh btw, 007 is surprisingly GOOD. :) Daniel Craig IS a better Bond. It is worth watching.

Watercolours

Going through the motions
Ending up nowhere at all
Can't see the sun on my wall

Going through emotions
Ending up on a frozen morning
With a heart not even broken

Seems I've been running
All my life
All my life
All my life
Like watercolours in the rain

I'll find the falling star
I'll fall In love
With the eyes of a dreamer
And a dream worth believing

*Watercolours in the Rain*

A dapple-grey gelding

These past few days had ben extremely hectic. Only got 4-5 hrs sleep every night, which is not good at all. On Monday,me, ninghan, and jac did our posters at ninghan's place. At first we thought, oh we shd b able to finish in the afternoon..how hard can putting up a few things, cutting, and gluing papers on a poster board can be. but..we were SO wrong. Ended up doing the poster until 11ish at nite..omg. In the end the three of us just start to laugh at random times, i think due to the stress lol. Thx to ninghan's housemates who cooked dinner as well =) its one of those rare proper dinner I had nowadays.

Yesterday got no lecture, only poster presentation. After that, felt soo damn relaxed, as if its the start of holiday. I'm quite glad that APP is finished. I really liked most of the materials tho, but there's so many reports and tutorials to do..so quite packed schedule. Initially i wanted to go back home and sleep..cos I only slept for 4 hrs the night before (trying to translate this whole webpage frm german-english! omg horror), but didn't really feel like gg home yet..so me, meiting, n michael went for lunch at OC. Then went to meiting's place for a bit...might buy birkenstocks! Went covent garden/oxf st.. shoe shopping! hehe..here's my christmas list : a wallet from Paul Smith, a pair of red pumps from Shelly's, a pair of gold pumps from this shoe boutique in covent garden. hehe...
Irma and Sasha went out clubbing to Tantra on the night, so we drank a bit at home..I decided not to go, due to extreme sleepiness..and just too lazy. Ended up doing my CV (finally, finished!) and cleaning our flat.

Today (Wed) was really good as well. Only had 1 lecture in the morning about stats. Then went horse riding. As usual when i came, i visited Ezra first. He still looked kind of sleepy, but he greeted me happily by rubbing his huge head on my shoulder, while searching for polo mints. Then i went to watch the b team in their jumping lesson. Then turns out I got to ride Ezra for our flat lesson, soo happy!! i've got him for 3 weeks in a row!!!!! happy happy..plus today only got me n harriet, so basically we got the whole big arena only for the two of us. He was really really good today. In the warm up, he was bit tense and he locked his inside shoulder as usual. but after a good 15-20 minutes..after a lot of figure eights, shoulder-in, shoulder-fore, and leg-yield..finally he stretched down and loosen up those tight muscles. When he's calm, he can really move! can feel his hindlegs really goin underneath his body..whilst keeping his head rounded all the time. Ah..that's one of the greatest, bestest feeling in the world when me and him just clicked. He knows what i wanted, and he did it perfectly. It's so effortless.. in a way you feel like floating on clouds =) It is true, if you watch the world's best riders, they never seem to move. They just seem like they didn't do a thing and sit perfectly still..while their horses do all those fancy, advanced dressage movement..like piaffe, flying changes, or passages. While actually the truth is, the cues they gave their horses are so extremely subtle...just a squeeze from their leg, a tiny flicker of the wrist, or a slight adjustment of your seat in the saddle..and their horses are so sensitive and highly schooled, they will respond to the slightest change in the rider's positions. What a magical sight. Reminds me when I went to Aachen in 2000, and I saw Anky van Grunsven on Bonfire doing the freestyle dressage..with flying changes at every stride in canter. wow.

Anyway, i think i shall stop here before i posted the whole page with horses and more horsey story.. Ezra, i love you so much. you've made my day today!!! (he got his treat : a full packet of polo mints).

Another monday morning

I feel very easily stressed nowadays. Like Meiting said, work is good. It's a therapy. When i work, as in work in cinema..not doing some essays/lab report/presentation..my mind just shut off. I just work and work and serve customers. It's really tiring physically, but mentally theraupetic. Because sometime you study, then you want 2 take a break..but even that u'r mind will keep wandering, oh shall i go back to study, or should i put this into my essay. Work is the same like horse riding. It's those moments when you can completely lose yourself in what you're doing. When the whole world fades and its just you and your horse, both workinng as a team.Like nothing else in the world matters..hmm maybe i'm exaggerating a bit. but yeah its true, for me at least.

Another week had passed. Now its Monday morning again..another new week.. starting new module, stats.
Nowadays, my time management sucks..seriously. I used to be much better in managing my time last year. My sleeping time also screwed up lately..I think the longer i am in uni, the less productive i am in doing work..sucks. =(

Got lots of things to sort out...visa.. still haven't succeed in booking train ticket frm vienna-prague. Yesterday me n ninghan called this local austrian train company, n got no clue whtv they're talking abt! its in german or heavily accented english..... plus cv.. dunno wht to do for summer....internship? everyone around me are submitting applications..make cv's...it makes me feel like i should do it as well, but is it what i really want to do?
I think i know the answer..but i just don't really know how to choose..will you choose to do the right thing or follow what your heart says? it sucks, it just makes me feel trapped.. i think i just make things sounds more complicated than it actually is. ~~

Hmmmh... oh irma made these yummy rainbow-sprinkled-vanilla cookies! ate a whole batch of freshly baked cookies just now =)

Another weekend

Time really really flies. Its already weekend again.
Last APP lectures was today. 2 weeks till xmas holiday officially starts. 5 more weeks before it's 2007. Hmm.. I haven't call home in weeks. Think am gonna call oma & opa nxt week definitely, also will call Dian. I just spent a long time talking to artati on the phone yesterday, just catching up on some random stuff. Gonna meet up with her for lunch smtime nxt week..since nxt week shd b more free hopefully. Updates..hmm on Wed got to jump Ezra again! i love him soo much. He's just so genuine, and sweet. Reminds me a lot of Bobby back home. I hope i can continue to jump him nxt week as well. Got this really..funny horse..called Luke for flat lesson. He is only 5 yrs old, but soo calm he will make u think he's actually 20yrs old. The thing is he's actually still green, so he didn't have much of a clue of what he's supposed to do..but he thinks he already knows his job. A bit hard to explain but yea.. he's a funny character tht one.

Also had a team social at Kat's place. It was really fun! we just ended up sharing horsey stories for hours. Thts wht i like abt horsy ppl, u dun have to actually know each other well, but just our love for horses connects us. Really. Everytime i compete/watch competitions, surely made friends.. with new horsy ppl. Can talk and talk for hours just abt horses, even tho we just met. =)

Then Claire came over on wed nite!!! so good to catch up with her!! she n ninghn slept over at my place. Didn't get much sleep lol. She's still the same, exactly the same..=) can't believe the last time i saw her was in egypt! all of it just seems so far far away now. I think i'll come down to southampton n visit her one day. hehe..

Today work was ok.. not so busy like last week. Also finish closing dam fast with johny..then we decided to continue cleaning so Dan won't ask us to go on floor lol.
anywayy.. gtg sleep now.

Sleeping

I just woke up after a 10-hrs sleep!! hehehe...felt really good, esp since these few days i've been sleeping only for 4-5 hrs. I'm watching the sunrise now. Yesterday evening went swimming, felt nice to swim =) then went back home, cook, then slept all the way thro till this morning. Nice.. I know i really shd do some work, like tidying up notes and stuff yesterday nite..but sleep is more important hehe.

Later on today got riding, yay! I dreamt of riding Ezra just now.. Then got team social at Kat's place.. then Claire's gonna come and stay over at my place tonite. Been ages since last time i saw her in egypt! many things to catch up. Also just sent a bday text to novi, she's 21 now! i think i'll gv her a call soon, see how things are back home..haven't talked to her for sometime as well. It's a bit funny as ppl always never believe we're cousins as we're so different, but we used to be quite similar i think.. in primary school.
Hmm..this week shd be ok, yesterday just handed in lab reports etc & also i like my presentation! yays..talking abt how your brain controlled your personal space is really quite interesting. =)

Battersea park

A very 'proper' dinner..aka : 2 main meal + ice cream + tea

Yummy carbonara cooked by alex at Ninghan's place xp

In Battersea park, can see tht's it's autumn now..nice, isn't it?

Today was a really threaupetic day, as ninghan mentions it hehe.. Went cycling to Battersea Park wt Ninghn (borrowed Michael's bike as usual lol). Realised that really, small bike does make you exercise much more. It was unusually sunny when we set off frm Cromwell rd, not warm..but at least the sun was shining =)

It's pretty near to cycle there, compared to the other time when we cycled to Richmond Park! wah..this one is quite nearby, 20mins i think. Got there, cycle2 around..saw so many ppl, kids mostly, playing rollerblades. Actually was initally thinking to rollerblade, while ninghn cycled. Lucky didn't do it, otherwise..hmm..i think will tk us forever to reach there hehe. It's really nice, since i hvn't been to battersea park since i moved to vic this yr. Last yr i went to jog there quite often every sundays/saturdays. Saw all the leaves turning yellowish, which means winter will b here very soon =( Spent a long time just sitting on a bench next to the pond, just talking2 under the sunshine..so relaxing! haha.. then was quite hungry, so decided to cycle back.

Back at Ninghn's place..then cook dinner (more like helping to cook dinner lol), as alex did all the cooking. Seriously yummy carbonara/bacon/cheese pasta! the cheesy flavour was super nice. Also cooked meatballs, n got LOADS of pasta. Dinner was fun, wt the dimmed light/candles (yeap,candles!)/wine...hehe. Got to know ninghn's housemates as well, really damn hilarious the conversation ard e dinner table! haha..

basically the meal went all the way from 2 main course..then ice cream/crunchy raisin (courtesy frm mushroom lol)..teh tarik. Happy and v.v.full at the end. Good time =)

I think really sundays like this shd happen more often..cos usually i hate sundays, as the day after that is Monday, which means beginning of a new week, more work to do. Oh dear.. APP work is just never ending! seriously.. I realised i really quite liked the materials they gv us in APP, but compared to AMB which is so slack, APP really was not easy la.

ok, gtg sleep now.. tmr gonna go Austrian embassy & *fingers crossed* will get all the visa matters sorted asap.

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007

Today at work it was insanely BUSY!!
OMG..seriously, Borat was nothing compared to James Bond. This one can b categorised as busy as Da Vinci Code was last time. It was sold out since 5pm..even for 9pm showing. Seriously. Plus we were all just serving-serving-serving and serving all the time non-stop. Even got no time to stock up. All night long till 11.30ish then it quietens down. I was SO glad they didn't put me on floor today, otherwise i will just die seriously.

Plus, today at school also damn busy. Got lab 9-12pm..chinese 12-1pm..lab again 2-3.30pm..lecture 3.30-4.30 pm. Plus me n ninghan manage to squeeze in a bit of time to do our lab rep on stat, using R. Quite cool, can get a graph etc really fast n easy =) Then it was raining like hell when we finish lect ard 4.30ish. Oh dear. Lucky can tk the underpass, then tk tube to fbdy, so didn't get soaked in the rain. Unlike yesterday, where I was literally drenched on my whole left side of my body...due to bus 24 who drove past while i was walking beside this huge pool of water.

Yesterday went Covent Garden to see the xmas tree being lighted up. Nothing much special really, it felt a bit too soon to feel all christmassy.. xp.

I read tephi's blog just now. And actually reading wht she said makes me realise that what I thought I used to have with a certain someone, actually I didn't. Even though I tried to convince myself for a long time that I had it, but turns out it's not what I thought it was. Strangely, after I read her blog, it didn't make me feel sad. It actually made me feel free and liberated. Why?cos during that time, I always thought that tht's it. Which in that time actually made me feel kinda trapped sometime. but no, really no..Now i can see it clearly, what i couldn't see back then. If somebody did not appreciate you enough, then why bother. It's their loss really =) I never admit it to anyone, but actually i've already realised this a long time ago. but that time, i was just trying to convince myself that i was wrong, when actually i was right all along. all the time.Why do people try to convince themselves to do something that they thought was the RIGHT thing to do? when actually, you already know the answer all along. Listen to it, because really..most of the time it's true, i think =)

Mid-week

Just had a long long chat with Tephi..looks like i can't go n visit her in LA during easter , too bad. but anyway, i realised something that in certain principal, we agreed in completely opposite things. I never really realised it until just now, even though i've known her for a long time. It's funny how sometimes, even old friends can still surprise you. You thought you knew someone really well, but then it turns out that there are still different sides of them that you have not yet met. I think i read somewhere that you can only know 10 % of a person's personality, even your very closest friend. I think it might be true. Humans are very complicated. Even i think i'm slightly different when i'm here and when i'm back home. Not drastically different, but just not the same. At home, with people who already knows you since forever, they already have a set of perception how you should be..In here, it's more liberating, it's quite refreshing though.

Today was quite good, our internet (proper one, no more stealing wireless connection frm our neighbour lol) is up and running! yays..but the bad thing is that its still a bit screwed up. Got disconnected so many times! damn.

Yesterday had dinner with manda, ajeng, and her sisters.. Its been ages since i saw her! last time was when I left TarQ in 2003 for concord. Been feeling quite nostalgic these few days. Was really considering to go back to Shrewsbury this weekend, but decided not to due to work & lab reports.

I was browsing thr concord's website yesterday, and it makes me miss that place even more so.

Missed the morning wake up call and morning registration

Missed the chocolate croissants during breakfast

Missed prep/saturday tests in sports hall

Missed the dining hall and our table

Missed cycling to Heather's place and her horses

Missed post office/numerous trips to town on saturdays/midnite bday surprises

Missed the rooms with super thin walls where u can actually talk to artati thro the walls

Missed the smell of fresh grass, field full of yellow flowers, and chilly morning frost

and all of the people

anyway, posted a few pics of concord in summer/winter/field full of yellow flowers in front of main hall/our lovely house, Highfield =)

Pergi jauh

Dian td mssg gw trs bilang kl alvin dpt beasiswa k stanford! gile..hebat2.. politics. trs ya dianya yg sedih gt krn dia bkl pergi..n gw bilang, ya di..mgk loe mst mikir utk bilang k alvin. krn slama kt masi punya kesempatan..ya knp ga..iya ga sih. Tp gw suka mikir jg, kynya yg bego tu gw kali ya.. tp gw seneng sih, krn byk kesempatan..tp yg suka bikin gw sedih, yaitu gw g tau dia mikir apa y ttg gw. Kt artati n manda, biasanya intuisi cw bener, tp kl gw nya doank yg k gr an gimn donk. ga lucu bgt.. tp ga tau ya..knp y gw bisa ngrsa ky gini. seneng sih, tp bittersweet senengnya..Gimana ya..gw jg bener2 ga tau mst ngapain skrg ini. Bingung.. gw suka mikir gimn ya kalo wht if gitu. tapii..duh g tau deh..susah. Tp satu yg jelas, hal2 sweet yg perna dia lakuin k gw uda lbh byk drpd yg dulu mantan gw perna bikin k gw. Knp yah kita ga perna bisa ngontrol kata hati? kalo bisa..mungkin dunia ini bkl jadi lebih membosankan..tapi at least ga ada orang yg bkl ngrasa sakit hati, kecewa, seneng, sedih.. ga tau lah, yg ada gw jadi depresi sndiri mikirin ini smua. Mungkin tenggelam di dlm khayalan juga suatu hal yg bagus kadang2..krn di dlm dunia yg loe bikin sndiri, pasti smuanya berakhir dgn bahagia. Sedangkan di dalam dunia nyata, mungkin kenyataan itu sendiri tidak semanis apa yang kau mau.

Fajar

It's 3am now and i'm happily browsing the internet from my comfy couch under a duvet =) hmm.. Work today was good. Closing with Sacha, damn fast! we finish at 2.20!! plus not so crowded. Raul is leaving nxt week..really quite surprised, he's been working there practically forever. He's gg to move to Australia.
Also today finally can get a bit of a breather. Handed in essay & lab report. Fiuhh...

Tomorrow and Sunday only got short shifts at work. yays. Hawking as well. Hmmm tomorrow wht shd i do.. i love weekends with nothing to do. It's so relaxing! =)
Shall I start researching on summer internships? hmm ..i dunno wht i want to do this summer. Go home definitely...to ride my horses n go diving. but also wanna work or do sth for the first 2mths here i think.. hmm lots of choices.
Hard to decide.

Lately my days seems to passed by in a blur..it's soo fast, suddenly it's alrd weekend again. Sometimes i'm scared that if i don't slow down, i might miss something precious along the way. I called artati yesterday, and she gave me a really nice advice.. it might be the answer i'm looking for lately. I think its true really, that some friends actually knows you better than you know yourself. They will make you see the reality.

"Aku berpikir, maka aku ada. Dimana pikiranku berada, disitu aku ada."

A breather

Finally, today for the first night since last week..I was home before 9pm!! yays.. yah i know my life's been extremely hectic. I think nowadays, I do more work last minute, but this week was insane..Omg, tmr got one essay n one lab report due. Then next week one essay and more lab reports..plus presentation the week after. Oh dear.. Plus also need to organise team social, xmas dinner, xmas trip for riding club to Olympia.. try to find sponsors. Plus work on weekends.
I really need more SLEEP.
Seriously..

Yesterday had a great time jumping with Ezra!!! so happy tht they let me jumped him cos usually they only allow very few ppl to jump him as he can be a bit tricky at times. He was still kinda green, thus he overjumped a lot...but wow he got such a strong hindlegs!! its been awhile since i jumped a horse with that much power..Kim is one of the few who can give u tht powerful feel of flying over fences. Miss her so much. If only can ship her here.. haha..
Plus I also got to ride this super CUTE small, hairy, rounded-belly, brown n white pony called Twiglet!!! omg he got the CUTEST face ever!!!!

Minds

What if's ..
do you ever stop to think of the probabilities?
somebody once said that the truth is always there, you just have to allow it

I'm very very sleepy now.. yesterday got Ning/Hock/Yoke's bday celebration =) quite succesfully managed to taopok ninghan lol. I think i'm a bit brain dead from writing about PWS now.

In lab

"I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; And because I cannot do everything I will not refuse to do the something that I can do." ~~Helen Keller

Flowers

This morning as I was leaving Sainsbury after doing grocery shopping, I notice the flowers that they sell near the entrance. Then I stopped to smell the flowers. It's smells nice, like all flowers of course do :) The thing is that those flowers have always been there. It's just usually I never take time to notice them. Slowing down is sometimes good. In all aspects tho, I usually remind myself to slow down if i fell a bit overwhelmed with everything.

Btw, 2day had an interesting trip back home frm work..cos I missed the last tube, so decided to tk bus 14 to Leicester sq..then tk 24 home frm there. Which overall took me 1hr to get back home. It's just a bit funny to actually arrive in picadilly at the time when I usually heading back home from there after having a dinner or drinks with manda & ti.

"Friendship. Joy. Peace. Happiness. A lot of nice things in life are free" it's a quote from a poster in the tube stn. Pretty true really.

Oh, eggnogg latte is back now in starbucks!! yay

KCLMSS nite

Pics from KCLMSS clubbing event at tiger2..had fun =) plus it's a bit like concord reunion. lols. thts us waiting for the bus..me n meiting.. manda,artati, me in e cloakroom.

Perfect pals

Ezra, a sweetie..
asking for polo mints after practice as usual ..

Todd and me..(far left)
he got such a smooth & powerful canter strides =)

Cold and dark winter

It's been super cold since yesterday :(
it's sunny, but it's cold.. cold cold cold
even now i'm actually wearing my coat & scarf in comp lab.. and still feel cold.
and tired. sleepy.
I hate winter..no more sunshine at 4pm.. it makes me feel very un-energised. Plus also it even colder in the stables.

Went to KCLMSS in tiger2x on tuesday nite. Had fun cos its been ages since we all went out and club. Used to do that quite often when we just came here 3yrs ago, everytime we went to london almost always went to club. I think after a while, its not so exciting anymore. Go club once in a while is ok tho, a nice change from everyday routine. Yan & Sasha went to our place to get ready beforehand, it makes me miss the nights we used to spent dressing up & getting ready together for xmas dinners/end of term party/etc back then in concord.

Got so many errands to run today. Feels like 24 hrs a day is really not enough sometimes. Finally able to secure an appointment with the austrian embassy on 20th of nov, dunno whether gonna hv enough time or not to apply for szech visa after that cos act austria visa only need 1 week to apply, but for indonesians & a few other country might take up to 3-4 weeks! bloody hell.
Also managed to call my dad today and got a bad news, apparently our horse carer is thinking to quit his job cos he was scolded by the stable's manager. Oh no, no no no...cos he knows Kim, Chief, and Zinnie inside out. So far he's been one of the best groom i ever had. Damn. I txted him today saying hopefully he won't quit. Another not so good news is abt opa, now he can't walk at all anymore.It's so sad..he used to b so full of life. Picking me up at school, but now its as if he has lost his spirit to live anymore. Which is like, the worst thing tht can happen if say, you're 80 yrs pld, got high blood pressure & diabetes. Not so good.
A few happy news as well.. laras is better, she isn't so sad anymore with Nikki gone..then abe gonna get married in november (seriously, i miss all of my friends/cousins weddings!). Spoke to mum as well. She got e pictures i emailed her yesterday and she said we all looked good (its e pic from clubbing & lebaran in indo embassy).

Hmmhh..
yah.. i dunno, i think today i feel a bit like a loner. Just like to be alone sometimes. And finish up all the errands i need to do for the day. Went to careers fair today, the only company that interest me is P&G. Plus they ran a 3-months paid summer internship. Hmm..might do that probably.
Gonna go and swim now..before i freeze to death in this freezing computer lab xp

Randomness

I think nowadays i'm getting more and more lazy..
which might b a good thing since everyone always says i work too hard. I think so too sometimes, but I can't help it. I always try to please ppl, and usually put aside my own needs. Which in theory is really good, but I think sometimes you have to b selfish and just put your happiness first..why? hmm because who else can love yourself as much as you do. I got this idea frm Magda today, cos she was talking why ppl shouldn't complain abt their looks. Well, honestly i think its perfectly normal why most ppl aren't satisfied abt their looks..wish they were slimmer/taller/etc etc..because its just in our nature. Humans are never satisfied. We always want more than what we already have. True. I used to b like tht as well.. but these days everytime i start to think why i'm not taller/thinner etc, I just remind myself that i'm lucky 2 b healthy, plus this body had already taken me horse riding/climb up to sinai/went diving down to 27 m in the red sea.. well, it carried me through. So yah, just try to tk care & love yourself i guess. Plus also watching grey's anatomy make me realise how easily things can go extremely wrong in your body.
oh well.. i need 2 sleep .. brain is not really working.

Daylight saving time

Thanks to daylight saving time, yesterday we all had to wait almost 1hr for our taxi!! damn. Yesterday worked till 2..,then as usual Bola booked us taxis 2 get home. Well, turns out e taxi driver FORGOT tht time has moved back 1hr..so all of us ended up waiting n waiting n tried to call the stupid taxi company who claims its not their fault. Omg.
Plus this morning the internet connection in my room sucks.. so can't do the lab report. Might need to go to school soon =( Can't wait till we get proper internet nxt week!

Yesterday was pretty good actually. Went for dimsum with silvia, yan, irma, artati, and a few of our juniors frm concord. Catching up etc. Then went selfridges to look for Pang's bday present. Also after tht went shopping ard a bit by myself, got a nice top frm river island which was on sale, yay. hehe. Then at nite do a 9 1/2 hr bloody long long shift on floor..Also got an unexpected phone call frm kevin, which was a bit random. Asking me n irma to go out for dinner with him, baim, dadit, rizal.. Quite a nice surprise since haven't seen them in a while. Oh well, anyway..gonna go n try to do some work now. Oh also sam just told me that I can hv another jumping lesson this Wed..yayyy! so happy.

Friday morning

Life's been pretty nice n relaxing these few days. With school getting more n more slack.. like today only got chinese & pract 2-5pm =) Not bad at all I think. Plus also I got a more or less nice shifts for work this weekend. Might b really busy tho cos apparently there's a new movie coming up(?). Called up my mom yesterday, after like..ages haven't call back. She seems fine. Too bad i'll miss ko abdi's wedding this week =( Then cie elvi's wedding nxt month. I had missed out on all of my cousins' wedding!! ko marvi's last yr, also cie eva's 2 yrs ago. Damn. Can't believe they're all getting married already now. It's not like I'm a big fan of weddings (plus watching a very very bad movie called Last Kiss, doesn't help), but I like to b there for them..cos well, ya it's apparently supposed 2b one of the happiest day in their lives, right.

Yesterday went for a nice indian meal & walked along river Thames at night. it's sooo nice =) thx lex! Also saw this artist who drew horse sketches..pretty nice drawings, really. The horse he drew reminded me of Gus. I wonder, so say everyday he drew a few sketches..then sold each at around 5-10quid. Then what if one day nobody buys? then he got no money for the day, so can't eat. Hmm.. nvm, my mind just wanders.
Anyway, yep gtg now.. gonna go for a run then off to school.

Achmad's 21st

achmad's 21st bday! at artati's place..lots of soju,sushi (thx 2 pat!), salmon, sate,cakes! thx to ti's fabulously well cooked dishes *grins

Lebaran!

Days seems to pass by sooo fast nowadays. Now it's already Monday again.. Weekends were filled with work, work , work. Work was fun tho, cos it was busy..so long shifts are ok. I can do long hrs as long as its busy. Feels like i've never been away at all frm the cinema. Oh also now got a very yummy new ice cream in baskin, love potion! white choc & strawberry wth chunks of choco chips! hehehe...=)

Yesterday watched History Boys, which was..hmm.. a stagnant movie? seems like got no beginning/climax/ending. Wanna watch Last Kiss! dunno why tht movie was sold out from fri-sat-sun, cos if u see frm the story, it seems just like a normal chick-flick movie.

Today is Lebaran!! Met lebaran bwt yg ngrayain yaa..my dear friends back home mostly. Went to Wisma Nusantara in East Finchley after lectures 2day. Omg, it's freakishly FAR! Apparently it is where they always celebrate Lebaran every yr. It was also where our ambassador lives. No wonder, Annissa always complain if we wanna meet up in central, cos where she lives is bloody far far away. The houses ard tht area is all so nice! reminds me of an area in central jakarta, where all e rich ppl lives. Met up wt irma, artati, mira, frida, fiq, baim etc,..kevin & anissa. Felt a bit guilty to kev for not coming for PPIL commitee meeting on Sat, but tht nite I was working anyway. You know, I just realised actually there are LOADS of indo ppl in London 2day.. today it was like a huge wedding reception (plus I felt incredibly bright cos I was wearing a yellow top, whilst 90 % others r in black~), wth all the women with kebaya, indo songs, indo languages..& the best, indo FOOD! sometimes actually even tho jkt will always b home, but now i start to feel like england is home too. Esp shrewsbury, every yr if i went back there to visit Mrs.Seaward, coming back 2 concord really feels like coming home.

These days my days are pretty busy.. sometimes i feel a bit like an introvert tho, cos in weeknds i'm working. When I got a free day, usually i prefer to spend a bit of time alone. Also been thinking tht most of the times, your heart and logic just don't corresponds..hmm. Yesterday morning went for a long jog to big ben/london eye/jubilee bridge. The best part was when I was running along Thames path, big ben & river thames along my left hand side.. and rows of trees with yellowish leaves on the right. In that moment I realised, simply that London is pretty =)

Coming back

Today was my 1st day back in the cinema =)
wah.. most of the things still the same.. a few things changed.
So happy 2 see most of my friends again..
Can't believe its been 4 mths ago since last time I worked there.

A bit puzzled why bio seems so slack nowadays..got more and more free time than ever. I think my chinese course is even more work compared 2 bio course. 2nd yr supposed to b more work..right, but anyway i'm not complaining. Less work is always better..hehe

Was chatting wt dian just now. A bit funny how her life and mine seems to be facing very similar problems these days lol..it's like parallel lives on both sides of the world.

Rants/wish

You know, sometimes when you are looking for something, then you think you found it..then it turns out that, yeah you did find something, but it is the fucking wrong thing. Not very good, right? no, seriously, it is not.

Well, excluding from that..I think life's been in the pretty bright side lately.. Can't believe I actually resigned from Auntie Anne after only 1 mth. This must've been one of my shortest employment record ever. but i'm honestly relieved. The job was easy, not as tiring as cinema. BUT it is boring.. long shift.. and i dunno, i just don't really enjoy doing it. It really makes me think, after i graduate.. i better do a job that i really love.. otherwise, it'll be hell as u'll be stuck doing that job for what..th next 20-30 yrs on? so yep, i will do sth that i really like, which is any work with horses. Can't wait for Wed to get my weekly dose of horses =)

"There is something about the outside of a horse that is good for the inside of a man" -Sir Winston Churchill-

Unwell

Not feeling well =(
woke up wth a sore throat & annoying headache.. must've caught the flu bugs frm irma i guess.. *sigh. plus got to work later frm 2-9..hopefully shop won't b too crowded

Happily happy

Today is so relaxing! i think never feel this relaxed since school started :) yay.. cos got no work today (Sneh gave me a day off..and tmr is my last shift at Auntie Anne's). Claire was supposed 2 come yesterday, but she fell sick so oh well..prob nxt time then, quite dissapointed as i was really looking fwd 2 see her.
Yesterday nite ate a yummy dinner! probably the most proper meal i had since last week..Alex n ninghan came over after lab. lex cooked pork chop n ninghn made sweet corn desert, whilst i made.. a new & interesting style of mashed potato. Plus got my fridge full 4 e nxt 2-3 days ;)
anyhow, had a good time yesterday.
This morning woke up feeling v.lazy, but somehow free.. as got nothing 2 do for the whole day! went to ti's place, starbucks n lunch w alex,walked ard oxf st..saw this nice pair of ankle boots in Dorothy perkins & jacket in ted baker.. hmm. i'm in the shopping mood nowadays. oh no, i think now i work more n actually spend more. indulging myself lol.

A little pick-me-up

Sometimes when u don't expect it, a friend of yours did small little things tht makes you feel touched. Yesterday my flatmate waited & called when i didn't get back home when it's alrd quite late..then she even wait up for me (even tho in the end i decided not to come home at all..since it was already 4am, and it's bloody far to go back home from Hank's place). So spend d nite there, n when i came home this morning, found out tht she & her boyfriend had cooked me a nice supper n desert. :) wah..somehow that small little thing she did just made me feel happy all day long today.
I think sometimes i took my friends, esp the old ones, for granted..which i shouldn't really. Friends, they're all super precious. ok ok, gtg sleep now.. was chatting w.Claire just now. Can't wait to see her on friday!! she's definitely coming to london!!! yayy..Oh also now so far got 16 ppl who wants to try out for the riding team!! and some of them seems to b really2 good riders, got this one girl who's been riding for 16yrs (i've only been riding for 12 yrs), also this other girl who's taken a gap yr and devoted all her time to train other ppl's horses (my dream job in the future hehe)..so happy!! i was initally afraid we won't have enough ppl in the team this yr, as we only got 4 ppl left (me,liv,kat,sam)..and we need 8 riders in the team. but now things seems to b looking rather good hehe.

oh btw, now i'm getting better in making coffees! can make latte/cappucinno/espresso/americano..only am still crap in twisting the pretzels, somehow they always ended up not twisted. lol

Dapple grey

I always had a fetish for dapple grey horses, and Ezra is one of the sweetest horses i've ever known! He got an extremely comfy, flowing canter. His only problem is tht he tends block his hind legs in trot, causing the impulsion not flowing from behind like wht its suppose 2b. Much better compared to Todd, which got a really good impulsion, but needs a lot of leg. I think currently i've been getting better & better horses in lessons. Last time term I thought Black Jack, Trio, n Gus were really good already for a riding school standard.. but then this term since we got Adam as our new team trainer, he gave us much more advanced horses. Which is way more preferable, cos they're all way more fun and exciting to ride..Like today, Ezra tried to test me as we were cantering nicely and did some nice half-pirouettes, he decided to suddenly spooked at the sight of Kim carrying jumping poles. Which were totally just out of mischief, as he's an experienced jumper and already saw those poles a million times before. Lucky I reacted fast enough, otherwise i would've ended up on the ground.. He reminds me of Chief tho, the way he will always keeps u on your toes. As the minute your mind wanders off, he'll do sth to remind you that he wants your full attention, all the time, every single step, when you're riding him.