Stop

Omg i just want to die...so so many things to do but got no time *sigh

ive been doing 9-5 lectures/lab every single day.. then got indonesian night rehearsals like 3 times a week now (in which this past two days we stayed in LSE until 10-11pm ish..and today i left home at 8am morning, got back home briefly from 6-8pm.. went to LSE and didnt come home until 12pm! aaa...)

24 hours is SO not enough

i still got lab reports, have to start revising for finals, have to email final year project supervisor

at least i finish all my postgrad applications already

tired! and i cant actually sleep yet even tho im tired but a thousand things still run through my mind, its like im mentally making checklists of things needed to be done, notes to be made, journals to be printed etc etc

and London is damn damn cooolllddd today

actually this is a very random post, sorry

just got to the point when i asked irma today :

'why can't we simply just EXIST ?'

wouldnt it be wonderful if we can just simply LIVE life

no need to worry about school, work, family, money, future etc

These days, we have endless targets to chase, things to accomplish, places to visit..

We did A levels to aim for grades so we can be accepted into a good university, we got the grades and enroll in the university we want.. but do we stop there? No, now we want to get 1st class degree, so we work our butt off to get our degree....three years later we got our degree..but do we stop there? No, now we want to get our 'dream' job...so we fill and send endless application forms, wrote endless personal statements and went to endless assesment centres and interviews.....finally we got a job, but do we stop there? No, now we want to built up savings... after a few years working, we finally saved up enough to buy a house, buy a car, a horse and invest some of the money for little luxuries.. but do we stop there? No, now we want to settle down with a family...so we hunt for 'the one'...finally we found him/her, got married, got kids...but do we stop there? hmm at this point maybe some people will actuially STOP there, but i have a sinking feeling that No, now we want more and more and more and more things... .... when will we actually STOP ?