Sums up my past activities after exams :) I cant help it, i like recording things down..in my blog, in my journal and in my facebook/friendster page. Happy times are good :) then when im down and lonely, looking at all the happy happy memories and photos never fails to at least put a silly grin on my face.. hehe. As you may guess, im currently have nothing better to do over the weekend.. Just came back from a very fulfilling dinner at Four Seasons with Ale as well. and now i cant be bothered to do anything..except sitting down under the duvet on my comfy couch, sipping a big mug of tea while watching the raindrops falling outside my window :)

good bye Delph!! :*( drinks at Lloyds + meeting up with fellow VUE-ex workmates
Sheep//Lamb (supposedly he's Shaun the Sheep i guess) at west end live concert! very entertaining, so sad we missed Sound of Music and Dirty Dancing.. ..

Babushka! celebrating the beginning of summer :) :)

Babushka too!

Hyde Park! last day of exam, straight after the exam actually.. never felt more free and relaxed *release deep breath* :) :) grins~

Wet,wet.. w e t Sunday

Gosh, i feel like i havent written here in ages! updates, ive started work at the hospital last Monday. I quite enjoyed it, it opens up a whole new interesting knowledge for me..who've been surrounded by bacteria, xylem, phloems, b cells and t cells all year round..now changes to atrioventricular, avsd, mitral valves, etc. My supervisor is great, and her other team members are all friendly :) Medicine is a very interesting area i must say.I feel a bit lost with all the terminology and stuff at first, but after a few days i get used to it already. I kind of like the working hours too, 9.30-5 ish..not strict, can come a bit late or leave early..then after work i went out with friends. Feel like a proper working woman now.. haha. I went out everyday last week after work, which was brilliant.. i went to a gig with charlotte and other bio ppl, visit artati's place for yummy dinner, went for a drink with fellow ex-vue workmates. I must say, i enjoyed my summer here so far :) and im used to be alone now in my flat since irma went back two weeks ago, so its fine :)

Today i rode Loki as usual, then what Nikki said to me truly make me smile all day..hehe.. happy that the work and training ive done with him is being recognised and praised most of all :) :) She said he's much more matured now and ready to learn piaffe!! how cool was that..I love it best when the owners are happy with the horses ive trained and exercised!! reminds me of Bobby and Jolly.. i grew really fond of them both.

Other things.. bomb threat in picadilly yesterday! shocked me when i read it on the news.. the first thing that cross my mind was that, shit i have to call home cause mom and dad most prob be quite worried since they knew i went to that area quite often at nights.. of course, its picadilly!!

London is so bloody wet these days.. i didnt even bother putting my umbrella in my bag anymore, since i just had to keep taking it out and unfolding it. luckily im in such a good mood these few days, even shitty weather doesnt make me feel miserable like it usually does!

when you close your eyes, time just passed

then it came upon you, a realisation of all the time you have lost

making up for the lost time is not an easy task, for time..when its gone, it is simply lost

Need more SLEEP

I got a headache, which might be the result of only sleepin 2 1/2 hr last night :( aiya sometimes im so stupid in taking care of my own body in terms of getting enough sleep! I need distraction today. There is this thing bugging me which i dont really feel like thinking about it.. so im in dreary need to be distracted, which prompted me to go to dian's place just now, since she's like the closest neighbour i have here (10 min walk!). Ohwell, i guess some people will call me cold and a bit heartless, but thats the way i deal with things. I rarely show my emotions when faced with problems and emergencies, which some people might interpret it as being emotionless of some sort. but i dont mind, people who knows me knows that i do care :)

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly.

I'm FREEEEE...!!!
free ..free...~~ no more examsss!!!!
ahhh the sweet taste of the long-awaited freedom :) :) !!!!!!!!!!

Meredith-michaels Beerbaum and Shutterfly was awesome! i was watching their winning round in last year's world cup and it actually made me shiver from admiration :) they moved like one.

The one day before summer really begins

one more to go..one more paper!!! only genetics left tomorrow!!

cant believe..time flies. now its back in summer holiday again. was talking wt ninghan today and we agreed tht yeap, last summer in Egypt had been a magical, amazing, once in a lifetime sort of experience..which we can always look back with a smile on our faces :) i wonder what this summer gonna bring for me, for this is the first time i will actually spend a proper summer in uk for at least a month. I'm more curious towards whts urop gonna be like, but im sure it shd be fine. ive met my supervisor, and i also been introduced to her group..small group, friendly ppl. got one japanese guy n one singaporean girl too :) then i still have Loki for the weekends. Friends are mostly here as well. thinking about it, this might be my last summer here in case if i decided to go back home to work next year..even tho im still 100 % indecisive about whats my plan after i graduate.

Lullaby

I cant sleep!

these past two days my sleeping pattern was so bad, i woke up at least three times in the middle of the night. at first i thought something bad happened back home, so i called home. but everyone was perfectly fine, mom, dad, oma, opa, and horses. so why the hell i still cant sleep properly?? weird

Two papers were done and over with. I cant say im too happy with immunology, but virology was ok i hope. I think i must be the weirdest person ever, since I'm always the one starting revision way to damn early (ok say like 2 months before the exam..how early is that) and the one who stop panicking and just succumb to fate when it is near exam time. During exam time like these days.. i revised only briefly the day before the exam, and thats it. I know its impossible to cover everything and get perfect perfect grades for me anyway, so i know i had prepared my best..all that is left is to actually do the paper :) my point of view is that it is the effort that counts, not the final result.

Anyway,, i want to go to sleep but i cant!! drinking warm milk helps?? i really need to sleep!!

oh pic above was taken in Thorpe Park, went there last Saturday. The cloud above the lake was amazingly looks like a drawing!..It rained that day!!!! it was fun tho, went there wt everyone. went for a total of three rides, but nevertheless i always love going to theme park. and screaming like crazy on roller coaster can really relieve stress! in the end, the rain left us all completely soaking wet, thank goodness we decided to drove there instead of taking the train. at least we all dried up nicely and warmly and slept in the car on the way back :)

Love will lead you back :)

Historical..moment?

I was cleaning my room just now, i came across a framed picture of me and chief..then i saw the date : 04/06/99. It means 8 years ago. Then i went blog-browsing, came across an entry which about the riots in May 1998. Its been exactly 10 years ago now, yet it was still so vivid in my memory. What i remembered was, it was a hot afternoon.. I was in school. School was not supposed to end yet, but a few parents came and picked up their children..my classmates. We were not too sure what happened, but i overheard our teachers saying that the roads started to be blocked everywhere..so we have to go home soon otherwise we might be at risk of unable to go home. My elementary school was in south jakarta..riots started in north jakarta, but it spread out quickly to central area as well. My mom picked me up not long after that, I remembered exactly what she wore on that day as well..her green emeral colour work suit. We went home, luckily we still managed to went home. Dad came home soon after. I rememberd, at night we were worried because one of my older cousin, ko John... had not yet came home. His university, Trisakti, was the main area where the students protested against Suharto. A few..three? or more? of the students were shot that day in the campus. He came home late and he told us he was stuck in one of the classroom during the day, because the police barricaded the campus perimeter. In the end they were able to leave thankfully. Those same night, i remembered mom told me to pack an overnight bag..just in case. I carried my new riding helmet everywhere because during that time, that was my most precious possesion for me. Dad and wasudi went with all the guys who lived in our complex..patrolling our neighbourhood to prevent the mass from breaking in. The neighbourhood next to ours were not so lucky, some houses were broken into and the mass just took everything they found. Lucky our neighbourhood didnt. We were stuck in the house for ..2-3 days? and it was the time for final exam for elementary school..so it was postponed. When we came back to school..i remembered the school president, arif..the guy whom i had crush on for like ages back then..asked me to write a poem for this other school...Theresia or Sanur ..Tere i think. which got some part of their building burnt down..and a few of the nuns injured as the mass set the school campus on fire. It feels a bit funny now if i look at the history textbook for school children in indo..they will have a chapter about this riot, when the reformation began.. its weird knowing that i actually was there, experienced that ..mm..historical change i guess. oh well..so much for my mind wandering..gtg sleep now :)

Home alone

I just realised that my previous posts before this were so depressing. You must think i'm in a sort of depressed and fed up and tired due to exam stress.. hmm might be true. Today is my first day home alone! irma left this morning.. I went library, met michael, havent seen him in AGES! i like level 2, got many ppl that i know these days. Well, last night i slept a 3, woke up at 6,send irma off..then went to library super early at 7sih. I left early as well, since as usual, im weird..the closer i am to the exams, the more relaxed i became. Went back, COOKED! ohmy been dunno how long since i cook a proper proper meal for myself :) healthy as well.. lunch today is veggie. yummy..and my fridge is fully stocked with smoothie/ice tea/fruit juice. I drank like a camel nowadays..

sometimes i think why happiness is so damn hard to achieve? or does it depends on your perceptive as well? hmmh staying in library all day makes my brain becomes blur and my mood unpredictable.thinking of some past memories and decisions ive made, and made me all soppy and nostalgic, regretful and yet thankful, smiling and teary-eyed at the same time. not very good when all i wanted to do now is focusing on how t cell travels around your body and kills all the pathogens.. and just now i actually fell asleep right after drinking a can of redbull!

hmpf.. a year passed by so damn fast, in a blink of an eye
irma's leaving the day after tomorrow..i'll miss her and her randomness :(
staying alone for 1 month will be no fun i guess. i do kinda like being alone most of the times, yet somewhat knowing that she's here is very..familiar i guess. And finally in 2 days these stupid exams are going to finally START! now i'm in zero mood to study, i just study for the sake because i-need-to-be-studying-because-i-have-exams. I think people around me must be tired hearing me complain why i havent started whilst they already finish their exams for the umpteenth time.

Finance-wise

yay i like people come visit me in library!!
today many ppl come and visit me in my lib corner in haldane !
(even though they finish their exams ages ago already.. .. no comment)
anyways, today got this clumsy lady spilled MILK over my jeans + birkenstock! :( not fun at all.. it was in accoms office when me and irma went to submit our summer accom forms, hopefully can get evelyn gardens like last year.
Then i went to finance training at the union.. .. and it makes me a bit (ok actually a LOT) worried about my job next year as treasurer. You can get expelled from college if u did finance fraud, apparently there was some guy a few years back who got access to college bank account and he stole 635,000 quid! and also by being a trustee member of the union, they have the right to, simply put, hold grudge, against you in case you fucked up in your job and had to be sacked. Plus, VAT fraud is serious crime, can put you at least 6 years in jail with unlimited fine. Not like i'll ever do some VAT fraud, but just scared in case i do some stupid mistake in the budgeting money and all. And also all the tedious process, even need triplicate copies to bank the income.. put the correct club codes, consolidation code, expenditure, weekly finance report etc etc. Then also apparently if you are the exec comittee..u have the authorisation to allow expenses up to £ 1,000,000.-!!!! omg i nvr knew kat and jon got so much power. Me as treasurer can only authorised expenses up to £200, Sam as chair can authorise up to £1,000. but in a way, i'm looking forward to start working properly as a treasurer!! :) :) i miss being part of an organisation, and i always have this weird liking to do things that need scrupulous attention until the smallest possible details :)

Another Sunday

The first attempt at the so-called candid in the middle of a hot summer afternoon..with nothing to do
The second attempt at taking yet another candid moment :) while..err watching a rather interesting pair of people sitting not far from us

a present :) i like getting flowers !!

I got headache just now..a really bad one. didnt know why, so decided to take aspirin. bad bad.. have to get better soon. i was having yet another lazy sunday today, wandering around covent garden and had yummy okonomiyaki for lunch. im seriously getting broke soon since i havent cooked in a week and keep buying takeaways or eating outside or sometime irma/hazwan cook for me. argh..5 more days until exams will finally start! im having a moment of panic attack this afternoon in library, when i realised i have no clue what does cowpea mosaic virus and murine leukemia virus actually do. and it doesnt help that ive been having this stupid headache too. i should go to sleep soon i guess. and tomorrow wake up nice and early, go to library, attend the finance training for club officer, meet up with scott, sort out accomodation. longg long day tomorrow :( i want to go home!! boredom..and just getting quite fed up with studying really. At least on a happier note, i like my new camera phone!! the pic it takes are damn nice (see above), and even faster to upload to my laptop compared using normal camera! and i really should start saving money otherwise i will seriously live on instant noodles for the next 6 weeks until i go home. stop shopping. reduce eating out. sadly, i cant help but thinking that i deserve a nice yummy dinner at the end of the day after ive been revising for the whole day. sigh..indulgence.

Kangen rumah.. mood gw lagi ga jelas deh bbrp hari ini. gw kangenn banget ama temen2 lama di indo.. temen2 dari jaman sd/smp/sma. sometimes i feel so lost amidst all the familiar faces :( at least there is one place i know i will always belong.

Midnight nothing-to-do-ness

Just finished watching Equus :) ! naked daniel radcliffe + horses in the storyline. not bad at all, it was unexpectedly good really. and he acted well. and we did waited for about 30mins afterwards, sadly he didnt came out from the backstage door.
Food indulgence in Belgo! those mussles and mango beer, finished nicely with warm waffles topped with chocolate/hazelnut ice cream

Happy 22nd to you! ur the best :) !! it was quite an unexpected surprise, due to some sudden change of plans. but ohwells, we spend the night in a small cosy celebration, with cakes and ice creams and late night movies :)

Pretty, aren't they? from kew gardens as well, will take more pictures but sadly my camera battery died :(

Simon visiting, went to kew gardens :) thanks to judith for the free entry! it was a nice nice sunny spring afternoon, plus flowers everywhere and lazying on the grass under the sun :)

Okay, i guess im just so damn bored with ..i dont even know why im bored. so i decided to put up random collection of photos that sums up whts been happening these last few weeks to me. im just killing time to wait so i can call dian back home in indo, hmm another hour..what to do. btw, equus is good! quite rare for me to like a certain play, due to the fact that i fell asleep watching moulin rouge, chicago, and phantom of the opera. but i enjoyed equus, it was a nice play and i can relate very well to alan strang's character as it was portrayed as someone who worshipped horses, but in a strangely twisted way. anyway, i like it.

vauxhall looks like a nice place to live next september :) i want to live next to the river so can run alongside it. Was nice catching up with ajeng,dian just now over late late dinner. and on the other hand, i never know that you can get your stuff from DHL which was suppose to arrive here from home safely today..STUCK in the custom! damn. its so troublesome to fill the custom clearance form and all. i do hope it can be released soon.

Wonderland

whee... the more i spend time revising, the more i find myself trying to escape from reality. so far there are two things i like to do the most when i find myself want to wander to that dreamland. First thing, go for a run. I've started running regulary every day again now, it feels great. And ive discovered a new favourite route which takes me over vauxhall bridge and around st george's wharf area before making a complete loop to go back to the other side of the river. Second thing, go and watch some more series on the net and let the happy story line makes you have unrealistic view over life in general. I admit, its bad and time wasting.. but my revising is much more effective i study short period of time, like 2 hours then break 1 hour. and goes on like that, that sums up my activities nowadays. On the other hand, yesterday was irma's 22nd birthday :) ! it was a nice, cosy small celebration with only me, hazwan, and her. I will miss her if she leave next week :( :(

Now i know the term when people you love worry, you also worry for them. i really hope she's fine, she should be..please be ok. because even last night you make me worried. even worse, when you can do absolutely nothing.

Our first show and some thoughts of the future i guess

Pic of me and Loki in our first ever competition last weekend! it was in Trent Park, ran by Holly hill Riding Club. Nikki was giving me jump lessons on him twice last week, when she finally said why dont i take him to competitions. I was like, sure yay. So there we go, i was surprised to find how agile a jumper he is really. Considering he is always been not strong in canter, but he did enjoyed jumping a lot as i can tell. I entered him in the novice class with tiny jumps in it, nothing much big and too difficult. He loved it!! we jumped the whole course super perfectly, it was one of those rounds which can make you smile all the way. Perfect rhytm, perfect timing and distance for each and every single fence :) heavenly bliss. We were one as we jumped through the course. Perfect. The only remaining problem i have with him is NOT in the arena, but in the WARM UP..because he kept showing off and whinnying to other mares around. It was quite hellish, in the end i decided to warm up by ourselves in the outdoor arena due to the increasing worry that he might end up kicking one of the small kids on the ponies. It would have been alright if it was a sunny day, but that day was rainy and wet and windy. So well..yeah not very fun as i was freezing to death whilst warming him up. Overall, it was an enjoyable monday morning. I would honestly said i truly miss competing back home where i knew every single person and evey single horse competing.. here i only knew very few riders, but i did make a few new friends that day as well. They recognised Loki and we started talking about horses, so not bad at all.

What other things happened last week...oh yea after weeks of dread and hardwork and late nights, i finished and submitted my genetics reports and essays and stuff. I would say that this is the single most busiest course ive ever done in my 2 years in imperial so far. Now i know what other people said when they say they have LOTS of courswork to do. Went to see Artati's art exhibition too in her school, plus well..nothing much except staying home and revise. I really want to go home now since everyone is going back soon! ah. 8 more weeks.. im sure time will fly and a summer here might also be my last. No idea what im gonna do next year. The mere thought of a final year makes me even more confused as what to do after this degree ends. Do master? seems like everyone is suggesting that..thats what my initial plan is but now ive been having second thoughts about it. Do phD? no way..im not that keen a student to do that much more amount of studying really. Work? err yeah sure.but in what. I've always prided myself of not wanting to be the same like other people, but lately there's a change in me who wanted to be the same like what other people did..graduate, find a job, get married and live peacefully. Always thought that i wanted to do fieldwork, not office work, but now i think maybe office work also not bad. I dont know, im being very indecisive nowadays. In my mind, i see my future as a big question mark. can i just fly and follow where the wind blows?

Happy and sunny day today :) made me feel happy!! took Loki out this morning, which was a total workout. Then went to watch Baim's capoeira performance at london bridge just now, followed with dinner. Feel pleasantly full and tired now. strange thing, even though my revision is barely existent for these 2 days...but i feel accomplished and totally calm. i know my limits better now, so as when to ease off and when to push myself really hard. so i feel calmer. going to update more as lots of interesting things happened last week : mainly me and Loki's competition!! got pics and vids, will update soon as im so sleepy now.