Dragon or others

Sleepy..zzzzzzzzzzzz

falling asleep on my problem sheets..

sometime i work so slow, but i prefer to work slow as long as i actually understand what im doing. but seriously the so-called-dry-lab today really took a LOT out of me, its not physically taxing but you know that feeling when you work hard then finish, then its a bit like brain dead feeling. argh. i realised im not very smart, but then again its back to the old saying abt either being the head of the dragon or the tail. i gues im near the tail, but the even though its the tail, being the dragon itself is already above average right.

Was stuck in a moment of panic attack just now when i realise that exams are NOT far away and this is bloody 3rd year in which it will count 65 % towards my final degree!! aaaa....

then manage to calm myself down by doing laundry (switching to my Monica-from-friends-mode)

And on another note, im pretty proud of myself ! the reason ? 26 days!

H-7

Cool, right?

H-7 until Indonesian Night :) !!

this is what i've been doing these days, don't ask how my genetics write-up and problem sheets are going :( but happy!! today we finally got the chance to practice in old theatre together with the drama and Bruneian dance people. Can't wait until next week!!

Thursday 6th of March : Indonesian Cultural Night in LSE

come people !!!!

People-watching : a habit that every commuters pick up to kill time
I can actually say quite proudly that i'm able to pick out which clothes came from which shop (most of the time when my shopping mode is : on).

I want to eat dimsum...

Mika – Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more

Listening to this song used to make me feel sad, but i've listened to it again recently and it doesn't make me feel sad anymore. Yay :) (pic above taken frm a fajr's fs page tx!)

Self-contentment

I've never felt stronger before. These days my self-esteem are very good i think. Hehe.. and no this doesn't mean i'm free from all the stress of being a final year biologist, it just simply means that, hmm how do i put this into words? That I can feel myself changing, bit by bit, towards a more realistic me, more.. mature? no, not mature. Its not exactly confidence either, its just a feeling when you feel satisfied with yourself and happy being who you are. Knowing your faults, brave to face your problems and loving yourself a lot more than you used to be. Like someone said to me before, we create problems in our mind and it all just depends on your perspectives. Hmmh... feel sooo good these days :)

It is a well-known fact that when i blog often it means one of these three things :

i'm stressed

i'm bored

i'm exuberantly happy

I wish the number 3 will be the most often reasons, however today i'm blogging due to reason number 1. FINALLY today i can get home before 8 pm! such a relief. Our presentation was pretty crap today, but at least I had a really good long longgg jog just now to clear up my muddled up thoughts. And i went back and cleaned my room/.bathroom, switching to my clean-freak self is another thing i usually do when i'm feeling kind of brain -dead. like now.

Eat and Two Veg

Eat and Two Veg

a vegetarian restaurant located on Marylebone High St :)

Had lunch there with Wilson and Jac today, nice schnitzel! pork but not pork..i think i havent eaten non-asian food for at least a month. And I discovered that Marylebone is a pretty, quaint area, and walking there this afternoon really lifted my mood up.

Been in school since yesterday, then again today..sigh the after-effect of procrastinating is NOT fun. Totally underestimated the amount of work we had to do :(

Food for thought(?)

I've eaten three expired food products for my dinnner today. Amazing.

Usually i'm one of those people who will finish all their food in the fridge waayyy before the expiration date, however these past week i've been busy as hell thus hardly had any chance to gobble down the remaining food in my fridge.

What i've just eaten : mushroom, bacon and hazelnut yogurt (the mushroom and bacon were cooked with pasta, of course, not eaten with the hazelnut yogurt).

And our third dance rehearsal in LSE was getting better tonite. yay! but still the saman dance from PPI Prancis was amazing really, go watch in youtube as 'tari saman PPI Perancis' and thats what we're attempting to do (well progressing more likely).

Loved

I just said this in my blog post a few days ago, but am gonna say it again :

I feel so loved :)

happy.. seriously. I just went back from a belated-birthday dinner with Louisa and Simon in Mangosteen. Good food, great company. What more can I say. I feel truly blessed indeed :) thank you (again) dear friends, all of you had really made me feel extra-special and very much loved during my birthday this year *hugs and lots of kisses* !!

From the pre-birthday chocolates sent from my cousin in Brighton, midnight celebration with Irma and Mira at our lovely flat, Loki's company in the morning (yes he does count even tho he is a horse), lunch with Carina plus the cake surprise, shopping spree with Irma and Silvia in the afternoon, then the surprise gathering at night (thanks to manda & nti who've ran literally to wongkei and frantic-candle-searching xp, yan who came all the way even tho she was ill, and silv and irma...hugss super big hugs for you guys!), ended with drinking too much with Irma all night lol. Yummy dimsum lunch wt ninghn, mt, lex, wilson ...cant believe this IS our last year in bio :), then finally the last one is dinner today wt simon and louisa.

Love u to bits everyone!!!!!

My timetable for the rest of this week

Okay, sleeping for 11 hours straight last night was probably not such a good idea after all. It left me feeling lethargic throughout the whole day today actually. And I've been in school from 8.30-5 pm now.. Wanna go home but have to go to LSE for rehearsal. Arghh why do I let Silvia talk me into participating (again) in Indo nite this yearr.... at least we're doing the Saman dance in which i dont mind doing cos we dont have to wear kebaya (i cant fit into mine anymore, the last time i wore it was like in 1st year concord...when i was still thin enough haha..but seriously it doesnt fit me anymore sigh). Anyway, panic mode will be on very VERY soon because me and louisa is still in 0 % in doing our NGF project !!!

damnn...

argh............................

then tomorrow all day competing in UCL.. bday dinner at night with simon and louisa

then thursday gonna watch lion king..

then friday another rehearsal in LSE

then saturday riding and basketball and cny dimsum

omg when the hell will i find time to do proper work!!

panic mode : ON

Small little world

I guess as you get older, the more often it is to cross paths with people who know each other. Strange, what a small little world we live in. Isn't it ?

I feel loved :) :) ! Thanks again for everyone for the birthday wishes, wish I could name you one by one but then you all know who you are. Love you all to bits, and to some, miss you guys so much as well !! and I need to sleep, some serious long, dreamless, sleep.. much needed indeed. Dunno how I was coping these three days with just 3-4 hours sleep per night. I need my beauty sleep hehe..

Catch 22

22 today!!

on 2 feb :)

okay i might write something really stupid here but blame it on the wine-champagne-and chocolates lol. Overall had a very VERY enjoyable birthday today :) one of the best ever. Started with champagne and chocs at 12 midnite on 1 feb with irma and mira..slept at 3 am then actually (im proud of myself for actually waking up!) go ride Loki in the morning by 6am tube. Rode him in flat went superb, he did counter-canter damn well now... still got some over-excitement in doing flying changes though. It was FREEZING this morning!!!! what with the temperature around 0-1 C and i wear three layers of clothings doesnt help. Then went home, lunch with Carina in Arang. This nice small korean restaurant in Picc circ....got another bday cake there. Shopping spree wt irma and sil, went home and found Manda and Artati hiding in the kitchen (hehee tx guys seriously i thot ure all gg join us in clubbing which didnt happen in the end xp xp). Then got my 3rd bday cake :) :)

thanksss everyone!! cant act mention ur name one by one but yah..thanks a hell lot! today was one of the best birthdays i've ever had :) !!

*hugs and kisses!!!*

Billy Elliot the Musical

Teacher :

"Billy, how does it feels like when you are dancing ?"

Billy :

" I can't really explain it

I haven't got the words

It's a feeling that you can't control

I suppose it's like forgetting, losing who you are

And at the same time, something makes you whole"

'Electricity' from Billy Elliot the Musical :)

One of the best musical i've ever seen. Big hugs to irma and mira who had convince me to go and watch, since i'm always been a bit apprehensive to watch a musical due to previous experience when I fell asleep during Phantom of the Opera. And don't stare at me in shock, because for you all Phantom might be one of the best musical out there, but i'm just not too musical i guess..however I do enjoy Mamma Mia because the songs are very lively/pop-ish (and I love Abba songs). Anyway, that lyrics Billy sang above just really struck me, one word : horse riding.

Anyway, i'm gonna be 22 in about two hours!!

and i've got tomorrow nicely fully booked hehee...strangely, i don't feel that excited turning 22. I just feel..nothing. I even almost forgot that my bday is this weekend if not me checking the timetable last week to check when my essay was due.

I'm turning 22 on the 2nd day of the 2nd month and i live in flat 222 (ignore this end bit).

i love 2's !