Coexistence

It is such a nice feeling when you have all the time in the world to do what you want :)
i was just reading haruki murakami's 'the wind up bird chronicle' (VERY good) this afternoon for hours in my living room whilst irma was studying for her GMAT across me
Each of us in our own little world, yet such a peaceful feeling.
I love my flat/flatmates :) :)

Viva day !! last day !!

I am officially done with biology...!!

aaaaa...

had the viva this morning, it was much MUCH 100x less scary than i predicted :) :) i was up from 6am (well thats the time i always wake up anyway since revising period lol) then prepare until 11, my viva was scheduled to be at 12.10..so i arrived in uni around 11.45 and i actually went away from everyone and kinda hide out in queens lawn becos im soo nervous. Went up to rm 509, bumped into Kim and Sheena along the way and they calmed me down as they just had theirs, and it went allrite. so am calmed. then yeah i had mine with Bishop and Jim, they were so friendly and it was just like an informal chitchat. I kinda stuck with this simple question from Jim, 'so how do you tell the difference between an adult aphid and a nymph?' i was like..err...'from the size?;. apparently not err. oh but nvm, its doneeee!!!!!!!!

all my hardwork over 6 weeks project and my degree here in bio is DONE :) :) :)!!!!!

Got year photo taken outside ql, then afterwards went to Hyde Park wt fellow biologists where we just took 1001 silly photos (will upload after i got it from Adri). so fun! bread.cheese.cakes! (yeah cakes, we celebrate!!)..and random dogs.

Moved to adrianne's place then just stayed there till late, drinking chatting n just catching up. the more fun was that we were all just girls, like 10 girls catching up on the latest bio gossips lol. I was so outdated i realised in terms on whts going on around me *sigh, but nvm tonight had a great time catching up n just really, truly happy thats we are done now. No one else except fellow biologists can understand how we all feel now! yay!! well done guyss..and once more i cant believe 3 yrs had just flown by. sad :( :( gonna miss these chapters of my life and the people in it :( :( :(

The glass and the water inside

Louisa told me that i am the type of person who will always think from the "half-full" point of view.
It is interesting to think that you can always view the same thing from two different point of view, imagine there is a glass of water in fron of you..full to the brim. then you drank the water, leaving some in the glass.
Now, would you say the glass is half empty or half full?
it is the same thing
yet it is different

Final year project viva coming up in two days time!
one last effort to do before we can graduate my dear friends :)
gosh i cant believe im nearly nearing the very END of my bachelor degree in imperial..
time not just flies, it zooms sooo fast.
Need to start preparing today, its a bright and early morning :) :) i slept early last nite, woke up at 6am feeling refreshed. yay

Oddities

Today as I was sipping tea whilst going through the japan photos from the trip i went with inka last year, Irma came to my room and told me an unimportant piece of news in which actually is of great interest to me. yeah i know i am being extremely vague in here but if you are interested in what i am trying to say, the only clue i can give you is that the news is related to abnon kep seribu'08. Okay, irma got a friend whose boyfriend won the thing, so when irma was browsing through her friend's fb page, she came across a photo of this particular someone who is also happens to be one of the competitor. The fact that this someone, lets call him/her x, is a competitor gave me a little surprise, say maybe ranked 1-10...this is a surprise ranked 5. Then I googled the news again, and it just happens that a senior of mine is also a participant in that thing.. so this second surprise ranked like, 7 for me.

I think my post make no sense at all, probably only irma and me who will understand this particular post. however, the thing I want to emphasise here is the fact that it looks like the link will always exist. but not the link i cared about, it is the existence of it. even when we did not try to create it, it just formed. to put it in the most blatant way. Links that are going to be always there because it is there in the first place. Yet how i love the links, but at the same time i wished the links can just dissapear.

Links will create existence
Existence will be a constant reminder
Reminder will cause you to be unable to forget things that you wanted to
Can it be because it is not meant to be forgotten?
but then again, what are we supposed to do with things that you are not supposed to not forget, but does not want to forget?

Is forgetting really the only way out?

Robot-ic

I feel like a robot, crunching away through all the statistics all day long ...switching and clicking on my keyboard, moving from excel, word, R ..excel, word, R.. and the occasional use of my faithful old calculator who has accompanied me ever since secondary school. Blah. My existence becomes confined to this corner in my room, my desk to be precise. Communication to the outside world ceased to be in the form of msn and gmail chat, very rarely i even touched my mobile.

Strange, today i really do feel robotic.. its good actually, productive day indeed :)

Doing this is a bit different than revising. In revising, there is a clear end point in the day when you have finished all your so-called planned stuff to be revised for the day.

Whilst working on this project report, is more like an endless thing.

I even thought about how to organise my glucosinolate sequestration data table during my morning run today..

Even as I cook dinner, my mind was on how to fiddle with the barplot for combination uptake

Start to feel my other part of brain except the one that does work, switched off. Don't even feel the desire to continuously snack anymore as i usually never fail to do when i work at home like this. Sleepiness also seem to fade away.

Maybe im really turning inhumane. lol

The passing smile

The past made me happy today :)
which is unusual
but it gave me such a nice, comfy feeling
without the past, i will not be the me now
so am glad and thankful

Happy with my life these days
well not with the project deadline looming very soon, too soon indeed.
but i am content
in every sense of the way

Suddenly i missed my boarding school

lovely Concord college :(

was browsing through the website and realised that three years have passed since i graduated from there

time flies too fast sometime

Bye opa, we'll miss you

I just came back from the shortest ever trip back home
Opa passed away on Friday 6th june morning
thus I flew back home friday night and reach jakarta saturday 7th june night
I came back here to london today (monday 9th june)
Dian and Novi picked me up which was a really nice surprise as i was only expecting wasudi to pick me up because everyone were busy at the funeral home. I was even thinking to ask yaya to pick me up but decided not to.
The rest of saturday and sunday passed by in a blur which involved spending most of our time at the funeral home, went home briefly back for sleep then back to the funeral home again.
The funeral itself took place on Sunday. The spot we picked for opa was a nice, pretty hillside cemetary facing a small, albeit artificial lake, but it is pretty.
I am glad i decided to flew back home and be there for my family, as i've missed angkong's funeral 2 months ago. I realised in times like these, family will always be there for you. I love my family :)
And also a few of my dear friends who spare their time to drop by even though it was really late at night and i told them last minute that opa passed away. Lydia, dian, novi, yaya,inka,tephi, dwi, apin, andris, ebo ..thanks :)
and i hope oma will be okay, at least now she still got her sisters there for these few days.

Domba 23

Birthday girl .. posing lol. Happy 23rd irmaa!

Sushi lunchess.. in hyde park

Yup yup sushi and more sushi..

Midnight celebration from the st.george wharf-ers people :) minus Frida and Achmad

Happy 23rd irmaa!

cupcakes and sushii!!

Even though i only managed to enjoy a few bites of the sushi before rushing back to the lovely lab to prepare my samples that contained grounded aphids..

oh well, lab work is long but strangely it does give me satisfaction at the end of the long day..after a full day of being productive in lab. Then can go home and relax :)

THE future

"If you can find out your whole future, would you like to know?"
a good friend of mine asked me this question today
I wonder...
would i like to know?
Perhaps not
No, I wouldnt
because the me now lives in the way of thinking that each morning is a new beginning. a chance to start afresh :)
as cliche as it goes, it works for me
have a try?

Too long

My alcohol tolerance becomes so crap ever since my birthday
seriously
Never had this kind of after-effect that bad before
Had to admit it was damn bad during my bday as i cudnt remember a single thing
Today david and carina came over, and we had wine and smirnoff. I still seriously have to force myself to down even 2 glass of red wine. This is bad.. bad bad. Manage to gulp one shot of smirnoff and believe it or not i even ended up drinking milk after that.
This weekend again i did not do any proper work. Well, i did went into uni this morning to check on my aphids in lab and took some reading. Went for dimsum, coffee, and ended up in Joanne's place with david and carina.. then we all went back to my place where we kinda had desert first, noodles, back to desert and wine until almost midnight. A very enjoyable night in, great company, good food. chocolates. music :)
David is here for the summer so he's around, Carina also not so busy anymore so can go dinner often yays
and i am seriously in a very put off mode to do ANY work that is related to final year project
AT ALL
dunno why, just simply fed up. full stop.