Tsotsi

Yesterday went to watch Tsotsi w. Mand & Ti.
Unusual movie..was really good :)
Makes me think, that we're so lucky to have a chance to study here..in UK..have a good life back home..compared to those ppl in Africa. Watching d movie reminds me so much of home, where poor ppl are really poor, and the riches are increduously rich.
Its very,very similar..
somehow the movie makes you symphatize w d bad guy,
he is not a bad guy by nature, its just that he has no other choice.

Anyway, will go back to my revision now..been in library since 4 hrs ago, but i rather enjoyed reading abt animal behaviours :p!

Quiet(ness)

its very..very ..quiet in my flat now..
:)

talked to silvia on msn for abt 1 hr just now..missed her loads!
also darius just came to my room, he brought dvd's! haha..damn nice la, i called him & wondeirng if i can go to his room n disturb him hehehh..since i felt so bored.

Went for a swim & study in library, college was sooo..empty...
anyway,better stop writing now since i talked nonsense..
gonna watch dvd's and go to sleep early tonite hehe

No more school !!

Last dAy oF scHoOL !!
went to Newham city farm w. ninghan & yihlin..all e way in xone 3.. took DLR ('free')..to royal albert, walk2x..found e farm, donkey (30yr old!),koookie, cats,geese,horsie,pony,etc. Small farm, but pretty tidy..looked around & wait for d manager (sussana?) to come..got forms etc.

Went to Canary Wharf on d way back, took pics, went to bridge, books etc, read2x...damn hungry, went to eat at Nandos!! v.fulfilling meal!! had such a good time, just talking2x, fill up the bottomless soda! (like, 10 times i think), ate chickn & corn & chips...damn full :)
went back, pretty tired hehe

Then at nite, movie marathOn w. ninghan, matthew, charlotte ! watch hitch & lotr 3, hitch damn funny, lotr got lots of extended scene,so cool :)
slept ard 5.30ish..woke up at 11.15ish..
hmm...happy!

Jumps!

Finish the inter-club show jumping today..!
yayy..my 1st effort to organise a compt, n it went well!

When we get there, wit 6 of us building d course & dragging the poles ard etc..only took abt 10 min to set up d whole thing...wait around..ask kerry, judging..talk2x to wieland n jess (found out sm intersting news abt k & s haha)..
then novices went 1st..over poles...rush around helping ppl...got Yogi for jumping, tacked him up (he was still half asleep in his stable, sorry yogi...)

Jumped Yogi.. he had such a gd rhytm! no need to adjust d speed, he'll help me for that..but sumtime he was late in picking up his front feet, otherwise, he's v.honest! (remind me of Bobby, miss him! he was one of those horses who will always, always try his hardest for u)..
Wieland fell but he was ok, Jess rode Jock (omg he looked SO CUTE!)..
went to pub n had sm dirnks & talk2x with wieland,jess..
went back, bloody chelsea game again = delayed bus!!

Happy..hungry...but, easter holiday is COMING!! haha..
p.s: add another bet w ninghan..hmm..who knows

"Large streams from little fountains flow..Tall oaks from little acorns grow" -D.Everett-
quite true though, big things always start from small things (simplified in extreme) :)

Wishes?

This few days, somehow I kept thinking abt him...and I realised I missed him. Yep, its that simple, I miss him. So yesterday decided to send him a mssg asking how has he been doing lately.
He replied, said that he went to took his advance diving certificate this weeknd (lucky him!!) & they went for a dive to this ship-wreck from 1980's & they went for a night-dive as well (makes me really can't wait to go to Egypt!!! hehehe)
Anyway, yeah ok i know i didn't think abt him much during the day ..busy:. me as usual...but at nite can't seem to get him out of my mind. Still, no I don't regret breaking up, but just that i miss him lately

"Love did not involve gazing at each other, but looking forward together to the same direction" by A.Exupery. (frm Michael's xanga, thx! hehe).

Ice cream weekend ! *

Finally !
Had a good,proper weekend this week :)
Friday : went to dinner with all the indo nite commitee ppl at Bali-Bali..plus vandy & cassie as well.nice dinner (free food hehe). Then went to ciao bar for huge ice-creams afterwards. Got a good laugh & chat etc. Plus my camera took a plunge into Eko's ferrero-rocher ice cream It was hilarious! Took loads of pic ! (eg : the pic above! Jose-Christy-me-Eko,,,blisfully entranced in ice-cream heaven :)

Saturday : Kote's bday party dinner at Hank's place in Canary Wharf ! everyone there except Jose-Achmad-Jon-Boy. Ate,drink,gossiping, talk2x. Actually talked quite a lot with Lita, n found out abt her doll-collection passion. The dolls are so very very pretty! seriously, was imagining they would b scary looking dolls (eg: Bride of Chucky), but no, her dolls are so lovely !!
Went back so late, so sleepover at Manda's as usual :)
oh and we dressed kote as a girl!
haha

Sunday : woke up 1/2 alive at 9.30, drag myself back home to take a shower etc. Everyone still dead asleep when I left. Had a really nice yummy sukiyaki don at Sakura with Daryll :)
Then met up with Artati in Picadilly, ate ice cream again in Ciao Bar (order 2 very yummy, choc & berry ice cream!) .
Talked a lot with Daryll, it was really nice meeting up with her again after so long. She's still exactly the same as the last time i saw her. N was happy to hear that she's loving it in Belfast so much. Tried to recall abt wht happened with us back then, but it was so silly lar, we just couldn't actually remember what caused it all that time!
Swap lab stories, n talked abt all d new ppl we met, reminsicing concord 6.1 times.. those times wit our chem class plot, coti/frog with me, late-nite horror movies,rambling/mysterious guy when we walked out that time (creepy!), measuring grass, field trip, set 5, as english analysis thingy, talking thr our walls etc etc it seriously was damn good talking with her again.

Went back to artati's place , Satrio was there as well : she dyed & cut my hair! brown ish, looking good baby !

A good weekend! so long since I had a proper weeknd, the last time was when me & ninghan went to richmond parK!
hApPy and ONLY 4 MORE DAYS OF LECTURE TILL EASTER HOLIDAY!!!!

~~LiFe is SeRiouSly gOoD~~

A rather quiet weekend

Hmm
This weekend is a rather quiet one.
The pics abova are pics from Richmond Park !!! last sunday, me n ninghan cycled there. Me on Michael's bike, Ninghan on Daryl's. Somehow we end up in Wimbledon common, had lunch n tea at the windmill cafe (yeap a windmill), and wondering how on earth there are no signs of Richmond park. On our way back home, somehow we stumbled upon one of the real Richmond park entrance and we went 'aha!'.
Well, all in all last week was undoubtedly a very very nice.adventurous.fun.healthy Sunday ! :)

This week did nothing much, been spending the whole weekend reading up on books abt human sexual behaviour.my essay : Should Men be Unfaithful ?. somehow yet I really am enjoying myself doing research for this topic. Unlike the usual, dreadful times I tried to read on books abt topic that I did not enjoy :)
so goodie..hehe

Yesterday I chat on msn with him, somehow, I was really enjoying his company that time (chatting). I actually thought abt him quite a lot these few days, to b honest, i missed him. Yeap, I do. but no, I don't want to get back together w him, and we both know it just won't work for now. Considering both of us were like, busy all the time. Will be unfair to both of us even if we tried to make it work.
Anyway, yeah i admit i do miss him.

Indonesian Nite' 06 at LSE!!

Finally!!
Indonesian Night 2006 at LSE :)
it was a S.U.C.C.E.S.S !!

Ok, here goes..so these few days we've ALL been practicing and did rehearsals like there's no tomorrow. I mean, seriously..how on earth did we manage to rehearse for 8 hrs straight last Sunday, only Gos knows why. Then yesterday till 12..with everyone tired and in a bad mood, our last rehearsal is..acceptable..maybe everyone were just so nervous yesterday though.

TODAY!
went to LSE at 3..set up the quad (removing tables etc) after spending a very productive one-hour playing capsa with d guys)..did posters etc with Amy (LSE,frm Brunei, but she cud undertsd indo :) !)..
then Manda etc came..
guests start to come..at 6ish...Baim,Dadit,Ozzy etc were all there, vandy,darius, achmad,yoshio,michael,anca,puisan :)

Serving foods n drinks..ow ya did i mention dat eko did a very good job cutting the sellotapes with his teeth (yeap sadly since we dun hv any scissors!haha)..stick all the paper tablecloth :)
Food from Mawar restaurant (the owner is ang mo! but cud speak indo well)..
loads of ang mo tho..amazingly..
Serve food-drinks etc.ow and the ambassador came!
his daughter, annisa got the lead role as inem.

Performances!!
Inem the SEXY maid!
eko-ice cream guy, annisa-inem,satrio-jude law,amy-sienna, me,phillip,kerry,gerry-students, benny-light, andreas-sound, rahul-dancing guy,thomas-police officer, jose-inem's madam..
Kerry is hilariously funny in every scene he was in, Eko was such a natural, n Annisa is just the perfect inem!!
I was in the few scenes..as girl passing by Jude law in tube..dancing caca marica with jose,kerry,phil,amy..and FASHION SHOW! pairs up with Rahul..manda etc were all in fashion show (it reminds me SO much of our last mayor's concert!! even the song is exactly the same!!) and we all did little dances and poses, and it worked amazingly well considering the amount of practice we had (twice!).

Oh have i mention above dat we got sound trouble at the beginning? basically, mike works, but speaker! we were all freaked out but then me n phil managed to get (borrow) 2 speakers frm this guy,nick, at LSE SU..then put microphone in front of the mike, it worked!!! :)

Oh another thing, Irma's voice was kinda lost tonite, but she managed to sing!!! very proud of her tonite, brilliant performances though!!! manda & ange guitar, artati base..
damn nice..
anyway..gtg sleep now. GLad dat its over, was fun tho! get to know loads of new friends!! hehe..

Friday Night

Hellooo...
its Friday night!!
weekend is here!!
thx God

p.s : pic on the left was taken abt 4 mths ago in Attica, clubbing event by IC Indo Soc :) ..Looking good!!

Missed 2 whole days of school on Wed & Thurs (22nd & 23rd of Feb) since we got BUSA A team competitions..
Wed, 22nd : in Lee Valley Riding Centre (UCL as host)..Rode Bailey (big,BIG, dark bay mare..lovely stride & canter..kinda TOO fwd going in trot) did a very acceptable test, even tho its not v.incredible in particular, but passable test I think. Sadly, the judge was rather an unpleasant man I guess..very harsh markings! 5-5-5-4-4-4..but with nice comments, "nice rhytm.." etc..very VERY weird way of marking. Freeze our butt off while waiting for the show jumping..lunch & walk the course while carrying a plat of choc chip cookies & drank hot chocs while dunking cookies :)
Jess did a nice test on white-grayish mare..Lucy as well..and Kat as well..we all did ok tests..
Start the jumping : 3 paint horses, 1 light chesnut. Nice easy course, small tiny fences.. well..the same girl who fell off in Snowball, fell of AGAIN! from UCL..dunno her name, but this time it was a BAD fall..the horse, Baron, just didn't pick up at all at the 3rd fence in the treble..ambulance came..tokk her to hospital (Jess being medics come very very handy in times like this)...and what the Brunel girls said : "What are we gonna do abt the individual placing?" helooo we got an injured girl here!!! can't believe them!!!!!! and they were already WINNING that time.. puh-leeaseee...
decided to cancel the jumping altogether that day.

On Thursday 23rd Feb : Last competition at Trent Park (our place !!)..dressage horses : Phoebe,Jock,Coco,Avignon..warm Jock up (could NOT get him to canter left!)..rode Avignon in the test, ok test, can do better though...this girl from (Brunel!) damn..rode a nice test on Avvy, got 151 score! damn..

Jumpers : Black Jack, Trio, Ginger, Joe..BJ just went fantastic! i think he knows he's in a competition, he just zoomed around the course! I hardly have to do anything but sit tight and steer...seriously. Trio did not threw anyone off & he went very well (bless him! like Jess said)..Joe was lovely and Ginger as well.. NOBODY FELL OFF IN OUR JUMPING!!! WO HOOO !! great improvement, considering : at Snowball : 1 air ambulance + 1 ambulance... at Lee Valley : 1 ambulance..
At the end of the day, Brunel team won..UCL 2nd..IC (us!!)3rd..haha surprise2x.. but it's ok..
Went to the pub for drinks, took tube back home..completely exhausted.

Anyway, today (Friday) went to Manda's house after school...ate dinner there (ari cooked) , Pat came..talked n watched friends a bit..did some work.. It feels really nice, I did not realise how actually I missed being around ppl.
I guess I just discovered that I'm actually more of an introvert person rather than an extrovert person..really.. :)
but yeah it was nice tonight, its been quite a while since I had the time to came and just relaxed at Manda's place..hers was one of the places I can just go anytime and feels like I'm at home :)

Not as it seems like

Ok, i just read a message from him in fs.
He asked, "So, what do u think u had learned from this ?" I was like, wht d h*ll.. ?! I was actually kinda dissapointed that he asked. I mean, hey..its not just me! U know, I think I deserve better..seriously
Actually this one yr relationship, I did not feel like I'm in a real relationship if u knew what I mean...feels like we're in between (1/2 couple, 1/2 friends).
I did try to always let him know if I'm busy or something so I won't be able to go online for a few days..but he? no...never...! sometimes he can just dissapeared for a few days. I do trust him and all, but what's the problem just spending a few minutes to txt me saying he'll be busy for a few days etc..?!
Seems like we both take each other for granted really.
Yeah, maybe it's just too good to be true, so we're kinda blinded by it..

lessons learned :
If something too good to be true happened to u, well..enjoy it but be careful as it may seems better than it actually is.

p.s : that pic above is actually an old pic, but I'm just feeling like putting it up ;) [pic taken last summer in Mykonos,Greece..heaven on earth]

Concord Reunion 18Feb 2006

Concord Reunion,,

Came back today from cc, went there on Friday afternoon with Irma (very nearly missed our train! we actually, RUN, all the way from those ridiculously crwded fast-ticket machine ..all the way to platform 2 at euston, with the help of Hank & Kote who carried our bags). Omg, never again..pls be on time next time.
Took 18.40 pm train..arrive at Shrews around 22.00..took taci back to cc, when we saw the familiar lights from main hall..it truly feels like we've never been away before :)

Met silvia, mira,diana etc..stay at Aca's room. Had one of the most peacfeul,dreamless sleep i've had since weeks!! woke up feeling incredibly well-rested and peaceful the next day (sat morning). Went for breakfast with SIlvia (actually we weren's entirely sure if we're allowed to)..met Shane at the dining hall, he genuinely seems glad to see me :) ! am quite surprised because usually he's very subdued and quiet when we used to work together, but anyhow yeap met Rita & Sue as well.

Then took a long-log complete walk all around cc, saw my pics & photo up in mail hall, listed as "Concord College Top A-Level Results in 2005"..feeling quite proud (i look v.chubby in d pic!) also feel kinda sorry/weird for Silvia because her name wasn't on the list & the one on the list is the one with her uni listed as LSE..

Went for lunch at La Trattoria with Irma,Sil,Tracy,Diana..had the most Yummy lunch!! salmon-tagliatelle, marinara pizza..
Met Manda, Ti,Ange later on..shop around a bit. Took taxi back.
Met Pang & Yan in cc, i'm very very glad that Pang can make it back in time for reunion..seriously..and thank God she's ok now. It was very scary to think of what might happen to her if the blood clot did not get discovered now. Pang looked great! Yan as well..both of them looked more mature and prettier as well.

Met Salim and he told me that Mrs.Seaward wanted to meet us both at 7 pm beside the entrance to Mr.Bonella's house.
Get back to Red House (we're all staying at Aca's room..she was away this weekend, as her parent came to Manchester). Shower. Get dressed. In a rush, walked back to main hall..
Met Mrs. Seaward in her car, with Salim as well..had a long talk (Salim now works in BBC! gonna get film-producer license somthg nxt yr, Mrs.S is currently still in that prob she has, Carla's 21st on dat day, future bf for Tash, Amble's competing on 29th March with JP). Told her that I broke up, feel relieved, busy as usual.
Then went for the Reunion Dinner..had fish & cheese cake..again, it truly feels like we've never been away before..and all this time we're just coming back from a really really long summer holiday. Seriously...
Had quizzes on general knowledge, film ,and stuff. Met Mr.Morris,Mrs.Mac,Mr.Hickman,Dr.Braybroo
k,Nade,Sue,Rita,Helen etc etc ..all the vietnamese, Soph, ale, all the malaysians..
took a few pics..
went back-get changed-go to the disco
but disco kinda sucks (lights out a few times!!)

In the end, end up hanging around main hall..sitting and watching ppl...it all still the same, same ppl hang out with the same group of friends. get pretty bored after awhile.
Get to know most of the new 6.1 indo's : Tatum,Shendi, Tracy,Virginia,Hendy,Mira,Frida,Febrin ..seeing them and staying in Red House esp make me reminiscing abt all of our 6.1 memories! (loads of it with Zin..i miss u Zin!!)

Went back,took shower, got Bday present !! from kita-kita..a miss selfridge-red n white-striped shoulder bag which looks really cool & a wallet in the same colour as well :) thx guys!
slept with pang on Aca's bed, nti on the floor. Irma & Manda at Mira's room (managed to be ok at room check! mrs.Hawkins seemed not seen Manda).

On Sun morning got woken up roughly by fire alarm at 9.30!! (just found out a few hours ago that actually it was Silvia heating up croissant in the microwave that caused the fire alarm to ring!) hehe..
Could not sleep at all anymore. Decided to read mags, eat chocs brioche, took shower with Artati at the shower on the ground floor (in front of Mickey's old room) Totally reminds me of those times me & Zin used to take shower together & pass each other shampoo & conditioners etc from below the partition, talking2x all the time..and how I always managed to finished showering first. Miss all of it!!!
Finally took taxi to the train station with Irma,Man,Pang..
took train back to London, arrived at Euston at 16.10..went back to Orient tired, but happy.

Truly feels like i've never been away at all..like living in London is just one long long holiday, then coming back to Concord made me realise that somehow we;re all back to where it all began.
..If I can turn back time, i would LOVE to repeat my time in Concord. The place where I had truly made some life-long friends. Know my true ability if I push myself hard enough. And really simply meet all kinds of ppl who helped me in the path of finding myself. ..

There's never enough words to say, but I LOVE U ALL my ex-concordian friends..u all know who u are. :)

V-Day Glooms

Sometimes I feel like I just don't belong..?
why..dunno why
even tho am surrounded by friends,sometimes i just feel like i don't fit..
nothing feels better than old friends whom with u can feel as comfy as if u're wearing a pair of ur fave,old,tatty trainers..
in short : i miss my bestie back home!! u-know-who-u-are guys
damn..
maybe its just the effect of this rainy gloomy usual london day
anyway
today is
Valentine!!

,,Happy Valentine's Day,,!!
(suddenly remembered dat exactly one yr ago, I was in Edinburgh with Pang on V-day..attending Edinburgh Open day :) sooo many things had happened this one yr, time really flies man)

TarQ = BEST time in my life

Tonite after finished reading Lamb's lecture notes, suddenly I had the urge to open up my photo album..n seeing all those pics in TarQ suddenly makes me feel very..very..nostalgic..Suddenly I miss those time very much, all the laughter..
all the tears..
all the fun..
all those silliness...sleeping and eating in class..going out before ekskul..playing pool at teph's..
watching basketball games, cheering & singing & screaming
damn...
i really miss them now

shit
esp in 2.1..all those times, went to puncak & anyer..
acc sleepover..
banjir!! ngobok..
nyari dana..getting locked inside the emergency stairwell with teph!!
TARADISE..UNIVERSTAR..TARQ CUP
sleeping until 3 in d morning typing up all those basketball letters..
being so scared just to go to the 3rd grd's corridor to ask for signature with Ria, my partner in crime as secretary hehe...

quickly,nomat,hokben,kfc..
es teler..roti bakar edi..

I MISS U GUYS!!!

"Don't cry because it's over, but smile because it happened"

I just LOVE this HORSY day :)

Yesterday was a HAPPY-HAPPY day!!

We had the team B home competition in Trent, our team B : Olivia, Wieland, Sam & Sarah. We went there together at 11 from IC..set up the dressage arena (definitely NEED to bring measuring tape nxt time!!!)..warm Phoebe up (she was unusually skittish and jittery..)..scribed for d judge (Sheena, lives in New Forest, friend of Jess)..lunch is LOVELY!!...dressage ran from 1-3ish...Filippa help counting the scores..Kat sort out d riders in warm-up arena... at 3.30ish warm Black Jack for jumping!! Kerry set up the course..abt 70-90cm..easy course.. a SUPERB round with him!! v.fwd. and i just let my instinct took over and we flew over the jumps! man, did I miss those adrenaline rush u get everytime u just completed a perfect round in a perfect harmony wit ur horse!!! :) the BEST feeling in the world!!!!!!!

Help a bit wit setting up d jumping...watch jumpers..poor Wieland fell off!! but he's ok..GInger was so strong, but Sarah managed her just fine luckily...Olivia did a lovely clear round on BJ (see, he IS lovely!!)..
Jumping ran frm 3.30-5ish..

Overal winner for the day : Kent..then Brunel, Southampton, IC..
Dressage horses : Phoebe, Malibu, Madison, Coco
Jumping horses : Black Jack, Freud, Ginger, Flash (dodgy, threw Wieland off).

Damn tired back home...still trying to finish essay..
Skip morning lecture today!!!
haha..
Lab also not so bad la today, dissecting Drosophila larvae to find its salivary gland.
gd nite..
gonna sleep now :)
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First day in spRiNg teRm

Aarghh first day back in lecture and its abt GENETICS!! plus BCL is freakishly borinnngg & am just so dead cos i didn't understand a single thing...
Luckily got last year's notes frm Tript :) so shd be surviving..yeah rite..
3 1/2 hr lab on the so-called sterile practice technique & microscope usage..

Made an incredibly yummy tuna-chilli-garlic pasta for supper!!
Print like endless pages (well...54 pgs) of BCL's lecture notes..
Owyeah, happy news : FREE BEN & JERRY'S ice cream !!! for Opwall..

"No matter what I do, this unsettling, disturbing feeling keep crossing over my mind..about us..Is it true & I'm just too scared to admit it ?!"

heya..
so relaxing!!
exam free
u know, finally i can breathe again..no more rushing to revise.. haha.. i guess that what every person shd do after enduring a stressfull exam period.
Yesterday nite i finish like half a box of crisp n nut cereal while watching Friends, aarghh feel guilty after that!