Loki

Ninghan, here u go as i promised haha.. please meet : Loki. took this picture a few weeks ago when he was still being very polite. unlike this week when he decided to jump the fence into his field due to sheer impatience to go out and play. .. .. ..

Ok i know wht ur going to tell me, ya i'll go my best try be productive again for the rest of the afternoon (and not using blog as a chatroom i guess).

Can't believe i've skipped a whole chunk of virology lectures!! thats why i thought why virology so few lectures only..this is for skipping too many lectures last term :( *sigh
scolding myself when i realised it. Yesterday i read an article which said that apparently a person with an O blood type is suggested to eat lots of protein & little carbo, also that they make good leaders, very social, and not easily stressed. :)

Self-company

Hmmh.. ive been bcoming more and more and more LAZY to leave my super duper comfy flat. I've more or less finished my dissertation, dun think its very good but can pass hopefully. Then been revising since last week, made my revision timetable...and everyday at the end of the day, i feel so damn accomplished if i manage to foolow what i plan to revise on that day ( i marked it by crossing it with big black marker on my revision schedule :) ! ive got this thing with making list of things and crossing them out with markers, its satisfying!!). And yeap, been getting more antisocial too haha..its not like i dun want to go out or meet ppl, somehow now im just in the phase of 'can't-be-bothered-to-go-out-cos-its-just-too-damn-nice-at-home'...plus i really enjoy my own company, and there's always irma around too hehe. But no worries, i do go out. Yesterday and today i went riding of course as usual in the mornings. Loki was getting more and more naughty these days, uh oh.. not good but i try to be firm with him. Had dimsum with silvia yesterday and bought loads of snacks from china town (yeah, another side effect of me staying at home is equal to me eating all the time). It was a good detox-ing moment from revising. I usually aim to finish all my revision before the sun sets (yep, ive been using the sunset as my limit to finish studying/revising)..then after that, i strictly said to myself : no more work! its time to watch series/read/sleep/chat whatever but studying :) so yea..my routine's been very enjoyable these days :) heheee..

and.. today is my LAST day at work!

heheheh..

Friend

Even then when you think that everything is silent in you, when silence is the only friend, one word from far away changes your life. Maybe it is because you wanted that so much, maybe because you were just dreaming about it that very night, maybe because someone out there wants and longs for the same thing. In just one moment you are born again and start to grow, conceived just from one word, one very simple, sincere, warm and forgotten. Again you are wide awake from a long dream and you think that you are still sleeping and a tear stops in your eye one early summer morning. Yes, it is true that there exists someone, still brave to love, to share and to want, still brave to dream. My friend. I won`t say your name because you know that I am writing only to you, I will not tell you thank you since you know that every my word, deep and true, is the biggest gratitude for every smile on my face, for my long time forgotten dreams, dreamt once again, for every morning full of hope. You are so far away and you are so close in the same time, whenever I need you - you are there, in my heart, patient and kind, brave and mindful. You hear me. You see me. Only you know the secret of the right word in the right moment and when you are silent - you say many things, you give a lot. Only you know how to take me to that long trip, into one unknown world where the stars are always seen. I hear you in every music we share, I see you in every our distant city we walk. And I know that something indestructible exists, something untouchable - you and me. Friends forever. I love every sunrise because I know that you are in it, I love every sunset because I know that I will be dreaming our dreams. And I have strengths, lots of strengths for the impossible. And I can, can do everything. One warm summer morning gave me you, gift that cannot be bought. I am giving you these words from the very bottom of my heart that will beat forever for you and your happiness...

( "Friends forever", author Suzana Stojanovic, 07.18.2006. )

Kok lama2 gw jadi lagi males yah mengupdate blog ini, pdhl kalo lagi rajin2nya bisa tiap hari gw nulis. Liburan masi 2 minggu lagi ni, dissertation gw uda..ya kira2 uda 90% selese sih. Anehnya tiap kali gw baca ulang, yang ada gw makin ga ngerti apa yang udah gw tulis. Waduh ga bgt deh.. tapi ya i think it shd be ok deh. Paling ga bisa pass. Akhir2 gw lagi makin maless blajar, males kuliah.. pengen cepetan lulus trus..kerja? ato belajar lagi ya ambil master? aahh ga tau deh masi taun depan kan. Dulu jaman2 sd perasaan gw demen deh ama yang namanya belajar, kok akhir2 jadi males banget ya. Yang ada semua dikerjain last minute...ampe bisa tuh tidur cuman 1-2 jam tiap malem kalo emang lagi mo ngejer deadline assignment. Trus ga kapok2 juga, tetep aja diulangin lagi buat assignment berikutnya. Halah...kenapa yaa...suka sih padahal gw blajar bio, cuman males aja bikin tugasnya. Abis kadang2 uda cape2..banting tulang bikin tugas, eh nilai gw juga segitu2 aja..malah kadang ada temen yg emang uda super duper jenius pinter darisananya..bikin tugas cumah shari sebelom deadline, ehh dapet nilai lebih bagus dari gw. gimana ga jadi makin males coba.. haha.

Ya sudahlah..gw cuman lagi dalam sesi ga produktif ni sore ini..tadi pagi dirumah aja blajar, trus ke topshop ama nyokp, ke starbucks..en pulang lagi deh bermalas2 ria. :)

Just successfully spend 1 hr doing nothing productive whilst my initial plan was to finish doing biblio for my dissertation. logging on msn can really makes you forget the time lol.
Loki threw his left hind shoe off this morning. When i just mounted today, i can feel that his left hind shoe was loose. Then we galloped in the wood, so of course it nearly came off but he doesn't seem to mind it that much really. Don't ask how i can feel that his shoe nearly came off whilst i'm riding him, i just knew. If you've been riding long enough, you can just know if something feel not right when you get on the horse. Like, say the horse is limping..just by sitting on him or seeing from the ground, you'll be able to tell instantly which leg it is. I remember when i was really young, I was watching in amazement when i saw my trainer can immediately tell which leg the horse was favoring. but now its so easy to tell.. we just know. us,horse people :)

Biarkan pelangi pergi bersama hujan, masih banyak jutaan awan putih di langit yang setia menemani bumi mengelilingi matahari setiap harinya :)

I wonder why the mass shooting massacre that happened at Virgina Tech University got so much coverage ? Ok, it is bad.. 32 ppl died bcos of one disturbed (mentally?) student from South Korean. The thing that crossed my mind is, will this kind of thing will still get as much coverage and attention from the world if say, it happens in some far away, poor, undeveloped country ? even say, i'm quite sure if it happens in my home country, it wouldn't get the same amount of media attention. Strange. People die every second. Millions (well maybe not millions, but a lot). Because of poverty,diseases etc..or even from group conflicts like it had happened so many times back home.Conflicts between races, religion, political belief.and stuff. And yet, i guess there are just too many people back home so our government got too much going on to handle if a few people dies, so what. That's actually quite true, becos when I was younger I had this habit of always, always read the criminal and murder section in the papers and magazines back home. Everyday (until now) there are lots of people being killed and all, yet it was treated as a normal everyday things. Here, for example, if a guy got stabbed somewhere in, u can right away saw that news make a the headline in the free afternoon papers. And yea, a lot of death in this past week i guess. From the sudden, shocking death of my grandma's younger sister 2 days ago which left us shocked, and also my aunt's father in law passed away on the same day. I may not be close to both of them, but just what a bad coincidence.

how cute :)

as you can probably guess..i'm knackered after entertaining my parents constantly these past few days. as in, physically tired. all i can think about is eat and sleep. I slept for 10hrs straight last night! and had one of the weirdest dream ever, which is about getting expelled from my highschool, my friends rescuing me from the angry head nun, and some more strange events.

Can't believe yesteday i spent the night watching pussycat dolls audition on youtube with irma & mira. Irma's habit of watching reality shows that kind of thing had kinda catched up with me hehe. Today was HOT. Took cold cold nice shower just now, the good thing is cinema was practically dead so i cashed up early today :)
2 more weeks finally until i quit cinema. Oh well not so bad i guess. The longest, most horrible shifts were over..which was these three days. I've been sleeping soo well these few days (after some weird period of i-cant-fall-asleep-before-3am last week) and weather's been as perfect as london can be. Life's good for the exception of dissertation and revision to do.

Happiness and sunny days!
the only thing that was a burden of mind these past few days is work
luckily yesterday u decided to finally, finally resign (again) yes true. So my last shift will be next Friday. The worst part was telling Magda and my other friends in the cinema. but they all say, hey its ok bcos you have to prioritise things which are important in your life right now. I do realise that i'm not been so good in prioritising (is that how you spell it?) nowadays. My schedule's been always too freaking full..sometimes i feel like i cant even breathe... and the worst when i started to have troubles sleeping, thats when i know i've been too stressed out. Its like now, i have my parents for the next 1-2weeks (i do love them very much when they come over to visit me yays), dissertation, riding. Work just cant fit into it anymore, ive got enough of it. Frankly speaking, moneywise im always ok. Work is just a way for me to make extra money so i wont feel guilty if i shop a bit too much. So yeah, this is a final farewell to the cinema i guess. This time, i wont be coming back there again. I do still love my friends tho, and im sure a few of them i will definitely keep in touch.

On additional note, ive been touched by people who replied on a recent post of mine in facebook :) thanks guys. sometimes the people whom you are not quite close to can actually give a fresh advice and new point of views on certain things. It clears up things.

I'm happy that we can be honest now :)
life's getting better

i cannot sleep !!!
why why why.. yesterday i didnt slept at all too (as in who can actually sleep in the airport)..i slept for 6 hrs on the plane from new york to london. I came home, then tried to sleep from 3 am until now 6 am in the morning and I am STILL awake!!!
argh
i never never got jet-lagged this bad..
this is the first time, and i hate it :(

Not sleeping makes me think about 1001 things.. trying to fall asleep..from daydreaming, to making lists of things i wanted to buy..places where to take my parents..and finally my thought went back to him. Its funny how since I talked to him a lot through msn these past few weeks, i kinda miss him. Simple, yet true. Weird huh? its been so long but yet somehow he's still one of the few people who never fails to present to me the answers when i needed it. Thanks! :) (and yeap lucky he didnt blog nor did he reads blogs, otherwise i wouldnt dare to write this down) dan saran dia yang akhir2 ini jadi motto hidup gw yaitu selalu, always, jujur ama diri gw sendiri..its a good GOOD advice girls. Keep in mind okie :) anyways I'll be seeing him in a few months tho when i'm back home in indo, then we will definitely go and do some adventours again hehe. We talked about maybe cycling from jakarta to the beach.Wish Andra will be back too the same time this summer, lintang too.. then all the overseas people..hey lets come back home at the same time this summer? so we can meet up? especially those of you my dear friends in aussie.

Haa..
i totally give up trying to sleep
it sunrise already
*

Sweet child

Yays...i'm back home in London :)
States was exciting, but after being away for 2 weeks, yeap i admit i do miss london. I was talking to delphine just now, then when i said i think of London as my home..she replied tht it was strange, cos it is not my country. but nothing can erase the smile off my face today as i stepped into my lovely flat, put down my freaking heavy (its the heaviest ever!) backpack..then took a long cold shower..ahh pure bliss *grins. Home sweet home. Plus as usual irma has left something in the fridge for me to eat and tidy up (literally,she mira n hazwan cleaned up the whole flat, it was super shiny..they even clean the windows! *claps), she's the best ever :) ! Now i got the whole flat for me and my parents only until thursday..then irma n her parents will b back from germany. So so good talking n catching up with my parents today!!! I miss them a lot these days.. hehe happy happy. I know most of the times i tell ppl that i'm not very close to my parents...but there are days when i just feel like back to being a child and in those days i long to be back home with my parents with nothing to worry.
I am a loved child :)
hehe

Cherry Blossom

Kemaren gw baru ngomong2 ma yaya n dian ttg hal yang akhir2 ini bisa ampe bikin gw ga tidur coba. Bener juga kata orang, temen itu pasti bakal dukung dan slalu ada di blakang loe untuk semua hal2 yang loe putusin untuk loe jalanin...ya ga kawan2x..? dan itu bikin gw bisa senyum dengan lega dan berani untuk melakukan sesuatu yang harusnya uda gw jalanin dari dulu2. trimakasi kawan2.. :)

Ok i switch to english now.. hehe..sometimes there r things which are easier to write in indo :) Im still in washington dc now.. will b heading off to new york really soon (in which i dont think i can go back online till im home in dear london). Washington is full of CHERRY BLOSSOM trees! damn pretty!!!!!
it makes me feel like im in Japan :)
me and meiting took LOADS of pics of the cherry blossom trees.. then lots lots of other pretty pic off all the monuments. Washington is really a 'sightsee' city i guess. Pentagon couldn't go in :( so dissapointed. It was like my childhood dream to go and see pentagon..at least i went to the spy museum, which satisfies all my curiosity about the spy and CIA and intelligence world hehe.

Greetings from the states!

helloo..i'm in washington dc now!
so far..states is great!!
New york is massive! times square, chinatown, rockefeller, central park..loads of more interesting places & i shop a lot! (my backpack is so so full ...dunno how to carry all the stuff home..err)
Boston was relaxing and nice :) stayed in YWCA hostel, which was the best!
got tv room..n all we did was watching tv.. at night. haha
Then Quincy Market with all the chowder soup and peanut butter ice cream.. heavenly :)
This morning supposed to go around washington.. but end up playing internet haha due to rainy and gloomy weather outside =(
This trip was fun so far!
but i still prefer england compared to the states haha.. maybe i've been living in uk for far too long :)

Perfect Strangers

Today was a very unusual day.. I couldn't stop thinking about it. Okay, here goes :

- The 1st event :

I was in the tube on the way to Oakwood to go riding this morning (in some unearthly hour early in the morning, when the whole world is still asleep)... I was sitting next to this elderly man, wearing glasses and jumper,reading a thick novel. His apperance reminded me of a lecturer or a professor in a university. He looks like the nice, grandfatherly type. We boarded the tube in Kings cross together. I fell asleep..and woke up quite panicky cos i thought i had missed my stop. He must've noticed the worried look in my face as i tried to find out what the next station is. Then to my amazement, he said "Don't worry, I was planning to wake you up when we reach Oakwood anyway". Me,"Oh how do you know I was heading to Oakwood??", him "I can tell from your clothes that you are going riding", me "Oh thank you that was so kind of you". No, I didn't miss my station cos we're still like.. 2 station away from Oakwood. And yes, anyone can definitely tell i am going riding due to the fact i'm wearing my mud-covered boots and carrying a lethal-looking long riding whip. Anyway, after that short conversation above, we didn't talk anymore and we both got off in Oakwood and parted there. It was strange but nice, to think that he even thought of waking me up so I didn't miss my stop.

- The 2nd event :

It was around 11pm.. late morning. I finished riding and was waiting for the tube to come. I was standing in the platform...soaking up the morning sun (yes it did get quite nicely warm today in the morning). When I was just about to sit down (cos the tube took ages to come), a lady came and asked me, she "Did we just miss the tube?", me "yup, but i think the next one should be here in five minutes or so", she "Did you have a nice time riding today?", me "Yes, very much indeed..blablabla..". That was what started our almost 1/2 hour long conversation in the tube later on. Her name was Nasrni. She is from East Africa, came to UK 15 yrs ago, and now she's married with two kids. Her appearance was something like a housewife/working woman mixture kind of look (i think she's in her early 50s). We talked about general things. I mentioned to her about my studies and my liking in horses. She has a friend who just graduated from Imperial too. Then a few other general stuff about living and studying in England, work opportunities for foreigners and stuff. She runs her own accounting consultancy company of some sort. Turns out she lives just right across Trent Park Equestrian (that's the riding school where i went) and used to take her boys to ride there when they were younger, but their interest in riding only last for a short while. We talked all the way in the tube, until we parted ways in Kings Cross as I got off to change for the Victoria line. She gave me her business card too.

- The 3rd event :

It was just now, tonight. I was on my way home from work. I just came out from Pimlico tube station when i saw two lost-looking asian girls, backpackers, trying to use the public telephone. One of them catches my eye at the same time, and she called me over. She "Excuse me", me "Yes?"(a bit wary at first), she "Do u know why this telephone doesn't work?" (showing me the telephone and coins). Me "ermm no..why? can i help you?" (err..yeah i have no idea how to actually use the public phone. true). Turns out they wanted to give their friend a call to ask him directions to his place. So, I lend them my mobile. I do aware that that was quite a stupid action of me, i mean..hello, lending ur mobiles to some random stranger you met on the street? (this is Irma's reaction when i told her). I don't know, i am usually very wary and suspicious to strangers, even though they're friendly and all (due to the fact that i live in jakarta, where we naturally learn since young NOT to be trusting as thieves and pickpockets and muggers have 1001 ways to deceive you). Ok, story continued, she showed me the number, i dialled it in my mobile, ringtone, a guy answered, then i pass the phone to her. She talked to him, figure out that they needed to get to Vauxhall bridge, the riverside. I drew them a map how to walk there (its not far from pimlico tube really, 5-7 min walk). Then i said goodbye and left. They were japanese, around my age i guess. but that's all i knew, we didn't chitchat or made any other small talk at all.

Okay, after this third event.. I was really puzzled. I must've still looked a bit dazed when i get back home, cos irma asked what happened. I mean, i do meet strangers once in a while..chitchat..interact and stuff. But this one, THREE PERFECT STRANGERS in a day! Is this some kind of sign from Above? but what does this mean? (okay im just talking crap, pls dont listen). Anyway, ya the point is..it is just so unusual. Three..three..in one day. And its in london! i mean, if this happens while i was travelling or somthing, then it wasn't unusual. but this is london, where people are usually didn't take notice of others. Busy and rushing everywhere. No eye contact, no hellos, no good mornings were ever heard between us, the city commuters, during the the rush hours when we boarded the tube. This is London.

What an unusual day.

Tiredtiredtiredtired :(
and i will lose 1 hour sleep tonight cos the clock moved back one hour ..
but i will be riding tomorrow!
and heading of to the states on the day after tomorrow!

started packing.. making sure things that needed to be done is done.. and a few other gazillion stuff. At least flat is clean, ready for irma's parents when they come. Got us dollar/pounds sorted. Booked hotel for mum n dad already done too..
what else..
hmm..electricity meter to b fixed, washing machine (still), bathroom fan, tv license, sim card..
Will stop writing now before i actually turn this blog of mine to an agenda of to write down my to-do list.

Worrying about tv license..
...
........
... and a few other things.. :(

Laundry day

I feel very very proud of ourselves :)

Today me and irma went to the laundrette..dragging four humongous laundry bags filled with our laundry (which had been piling up since 1 1/2 months ago, due to our broken washing machine and another series of misfortunes that follows). We literally couldn't stop laughing cos we just looked hilarious, like santa claus with black rubbish bag and the concord-white-laundry bag slinging from our shoulders, walking down the road. And the dread of putting our clothes into the huge, not-so-very-clean and ancient looking public washing machine.. and keeping our fingers crossed while we literally stuffed the machine full to the brim. It works! even though it made loads of loud and worrying noises. and NOW OUR CLOTHES ARE CLEAN!!! :) :)

yippe..

On the other hand, our whole living room now looked like ..some kind of clothes shop, as we covered every single surface with clothes/sheets/towels to let them air-dry.

Oh i'm so very proud of ourselves!

Since we moved in, we had overcome so many things to sort out..starting from flat-hunting, making offers, then our non-working internet, setting up our phone line/electricity/gas bills, then all the incidents (fallen glass/door came off/broken washing machine/broken fan), etc etc..I must say, can't do all these without her :)